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StriderSwag Gold Sparx Gems: 2769
#38601 Posted: 05:11:37 30/10/2016
lesson learned, 5 consecutive is waaaaay better than 3 consecutive, thank god for experimentation

id go again tomorrow night but i should really save the whole thing for a rainy day, im gonna have it in a few years anyways, so i dont want to waste the sensation just yet

maybe finals week would be a good time to try lol

EDIT: also i just realized that this terminology might make it sound like im doing drugs or something but im a good girl i can 100% assure you im not <3


i feel like i could take on the whole world right now and win omg
Edited 1 time - Last edited at 05:13:01 30/10/2016 by StriderSwag
Eevee88 Emerald Sparx Gems: 4462
#38602 Posted: 07:01:03 30/10/2016
Whew, don't feel worried, Maria! Besides, he doesn't reply to you right away anymore, either, which makes me worried. Darn school...


I am so happy oh my gosh, I finally have an office! Though it's at my second home...STILL, ITS PERFECT FOR RECORDING VIDEOS/SINGING NONETHELESS, RIGHT? RIIGHT? I miss my own home...And I just realized my ranting problem is beginning to happen again, I ramble on useless stuff for no reason, this may end up a problem, especially IRL...Welp! )See. , it's happening even now!)
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Heading out, my liege? A commission, I presume? Then I shall accompany you. Just...ah, allow me to indulge in one more chapter...
Bolt Hunter Gems: 6135
#38603 Posted: 08:14:02 30/10/2016
do you know what makes me feel worse? the fact that i'm clearly distraught and i go to you to help ... but all you do is completely reject my feelings and say that you tell me the same things every time. i need to hear these things to make me feel better. maybe i "never do anything" because you make me feel like a horrible person so i question if there is even a point to do anything. i'm trying so much to get better but times like this just plunge me straight back down to where i was before. it makes me feel so much more worthless when you get angry at me for telling me how i feel and i break down crying ... but no one comes to comfort me. they all make you feel better and go to ask you if you are okay. how do you think that makes me feel. i suppose i don't deserve anyone's sympathy though. i'm ****ing worthless and deserve nothing. what's the point of doing anything. i hate how you tell me i do nothing. i struggle everyday to make myself feel like i am worth anything. i'm trying to build up my art porfolio to get into the indusrty, but being surropunded by people who are so much better than me makes me feel terirlbe. no one is going to want me when there are so many other people who are so much better than e. i suck. i won't be able to get hired by anyone. so again, what's the point even trying.
i feel so worthless right now and i utterly hate myself. i don't see the point in anything. i should just die and get it over with. i know the world would be such a better place without me. i wouldn't be bringing everyone else down. no one would get upset.
just kill me now. i want to die so badly but i'm too scared to take my own life. i'm scared of the pain. i'm scared of death.
i just don't want to exist anyore.
i can't do anything right


man i need help.
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you don't know me. i break things
I draw stuff.
Iceclaw Hunter Gems: 10060
#38604 Posted: 03:08:31 31/10/2016
Why don't you just tell me the truth? Stop leaving me to wonder
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Twinkies and 2hus
StriderSwag Gold Sparx Gems: 2769
#38605 Posted: 04:02:30 31/10/2016
well, ****...
i guess thats my big ****up to start the week
maybe i need to relax after westworld tonight

EDIT: relaxing helped me realize something
i learned so many of my mannerisms from the both of you, you both (for better or worse) taught me how to be girl, its a shame that YOU two of all people taught me
ill make sure to use my skills to actually be a good girlfriend in the future

y'know, its funny, every time i relax like this, i get some new outlook on life
im happier so far, my love life might not be as hopeless as i thought, and i have a renewed sense of self purpose
if only you could see how resilient ive become because of your past transgressions, i wont be broken again


You said this was the type of place where I could change my story? Well, I dreamed of a story where I wasn't the maiden.
Edited 3 times - Last edited at 06:41:51 31/10/2016 by StriderSwag
weebbby Emerald Sparx Gems: 4220
#38606 Posted: 12:36:42 31/10/2016
Last time there was something like this, I died for like three years. Why, in the heat of the end of first quarter, does this have to happen? I'm not gonna be able to do papers like this. I need closure here, regardless of what kind.

5char
StriderSwag Gold Sparx Gems: 2769
#38607 Posted: 15:03:39 31/10/2016
why wear a costume when i have to pretend every day of my life? :^)
SuperSpyroFan55 Gold Sparx Gems: 2265
#38608 Posted: 17:55:41 31/10/2016
Everytime I post something nowadays if a single person gets offended by it I just go ahead and delete it because if it doesn't get deleted by a mod within the hour its going to start a massive flame war in that topic and i'll never want to click on it again.
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eggmans gona pop dat cherry
wavesorcerer14 Emerald Sparx Gems: 4957
#38609 Posted: 20:51:19 31/10/2016
Okay, hopefully today I will finally manage to release my feelings here, without deleting the post after. *takes deep breath*

I don't get love. I'm happy that we're dating and all, and I truly care about you, but it just feels weird. I want to be with you forever, but being so many miles away from you just makes things worse. I understand what caring about someone feels like, but just not romantically... I feel like all the words I say to you are fake. They're all true, but I just can't get rid of that feeling. I really just don't want to lose you. You've done so much to make my life a much better place, and I really don't want to lose you. After reading some of your posts on here, I realize that you have so many problems in your life, that you never even told me. I feel like a worthless brat, not even realizing what you've been going through lately. Now that we're dating, our relationship feels... different. I feel like our messages aren't as casual and relaxed as they used to be. I also feel like we're trying to make everything romantic. I just don't like this feeling. I don't want to break up with you, but still... I just don't understand what love truly feels like yet, especially when it's online dating. Maybe it's because you feel more like a sister to me, or maybe it's because it felt too sudden, but I really just don't know how to handle this. I'm also worried that being in a relationship with each other could ruin everything. I don't want all of the memories we've had together to be thrown out the window in case we break up. Sigh. We're probably just too young. Ugh. It really does feel nice releasing my feelings. I just hope that she doesn't see this post...
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"altissima quaeque flumina minimo sono labi."
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Spyro Lover122 Gold Sparx Gems: 2147
#38610 Posted: 00:25:06 01/11/2016
I'm sick of trying to get through this. I just force myself to do everything, never do I actually want to. I just feel so lost and stuck, I'm finding it hard to cope. Nothing is the same as before, it won't ever be. My dad should be here with us, he needs to be. What's the point in carrying on when it's going to be like this for the rest of my life? I ask myself this everyday, no matter how hard I try. Every morning and night depresses me, life feels so empty and uneventful. I don't have much to live for.


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Whenever you reach too high, life smacks you down!
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TheToyNerd Gold Sparx Gems: 2137
#38611 Posted: 00:30:29 01/11/2016
WELP! I'm lonely af... Wish I wasn't sick!
TheFlyingSeal Diamond Sparx Gems: 8537
#38612 Posted: 01:58:47 01/11/2016
God I feel horrible. I go to a party that I told you last minute about after you were so excited to spend Halloween with me. I try to come back as early as I can, but even then I help contribute to make the day you've been waiting for even worse. I feel horrible. I shouldn't have gone to that party to at least make the day redeemable. I shouldn't have been so short with you in the call, either. I felt like it just made it worse.

If you're reading this I'm so so sorry. I hope you feel better and at least get your spooky night back.


what does the word melancholy mean.
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#CynderIsAFireDragon
StriderSwag Gold Sparx Gems: 2769
#38613 Posted: 02:04:27 01/11/2016
im ****ing sick and tired of you saying im "skating through today with minimal effort" when i busted my ass over the weekend to get as much as i could done so i could enjoy the one holiday i actually enjoy
youre so overly worried that i wont get the biology extra credit done that you force me to hang up my call and tell me i cant even hand out ****ing candy for the rest of the night when i literally have one sentence left to write and submit the stupid thing
then you tell me i should have finished my math homework and that youre disappointed in me for not completing it, but isnt it better to go ask for help when i dont understand ONE problem out of TEN???

god forbid i take 30 seconds of working on something, i clearly need to constantly be consumed by work like you are

god i cant wait to leave, im sick of how this family treats me, and tbh its sad that youre the only one who i actually give a damn about and you treat me like this on the one night this whole semester that i actually want to enjoy myself


thanks for ruining the one night this entire year i was looking forward to :^)
anyways crying my way through halloween is fun
Edited 1 time - Last edited at 02:07:00 01/11/2016 by StriderSwag
mega spyro Emerald Sparx Gems: 3847
#38614 Posted: 02:04:41 01/11/2016
What the actual **** is your problem? Why do you need to start throwing **** at me out of nowhere?
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Dead
CAV Platinum Sparx Gems: 6253
#38615 Posted: 02:05:27 01/11/2016
Oh.

Well...I thought I did a good job for once. I guess not.
Spyro Lover122 Gold Sparx Gems: 2147
#38616 Posted: 02:28:16 01/11/2016
Oh no no no, I am so ****ing stupid! She probably thinks I'm a monster now. It was an accident, and I'm not sure if she knows. Why did I have to be so stupid? Why do I always have to mess up? I can't forgive myself for this, and I don't know if she does. I love her so much, I would NEVER want to hurt her. She's always been there for me, and then I **** up and do this? Please don't hate me! I hope I didn't hurt her too badly. I just hate how ****ing clumsy I am, this only makes everything worse. It's my fault, and now I'll always remember that... Even if she forgets it happened or forgives me. I'm sorry... **** **** ****


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Whenever you reach too high, life smacks you down!
wavesorcerer14 Emerald Sparx Gems: 4957
#38617 Posted: 02:44:04 01/11/2016
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I feel a bit better after talking to her. I'm also proud that I was able to say all those things to her friend just now. I just don't want her friend to hurt her. I know way too much about "friends" hurting those who trusted and cared about them...
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"altissima quaeque flumina minimo sono labi."
Dark Bro Emerald Sparx Gems: 4523
#38618 Posted: 03:50:48 01/11/2016
Nights when I get to talk to her. <3
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"The circumstances of one's birth are irrelevant. It is what you do with the gift of life that determines who you are."
Mewtwo - Pokemon:The First Movie
StriderSwag Gold Sparx Gems: 2769
#38619 Posted: 06:23:03 01/11/2016
im glad i could talk that problem out and make it be better

butanyways my brain is scrambled idfc if this makes sense lol


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Bolt Hunter Gems: 6135
#38620 Posted: 06:52:56 01/11/2016
****
i just screwed up my chances of getting anywhere in life.
i suck so much
can someone just end me now
i was so prepared for tomorrow but it turns out it was actually today instead
i am so ****ing distraught right now you have no idea.
my life is over, what's the point trying to do anything anymore
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you don't know me. i break things
I draw stuff.
ShadowStorm Yellow Sparx Gems: 1461
#38621 Posted: 14:10:14 01/11/2016
Uuhhhhggggg i am getting extremely frustrated because of you... i seriously hate ur bs behavior.... i sometimes think u suffer from autism or something... god. I wish i had no sister.......
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Discord: ShaOriDow#6720
Spyro Lover122 Gold Sparx Gems: 2147
#38622 Posted: 17:38:58 01/11/2016
You just hate me so much. You should know better...
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Whenever you reach too high, life smacks you down!
mega spyro Emerald Sparx Gems: 3847
#38623 Posted: 17:54:24 01/11/2016
"Okay, write a five paragraph essay on family traditions by the end of today. You don't have family traditions? Go **** yourself!"

Good assignment. Make sure to give it to everyone on their busiest day too, and only give them 1 day to do it. My family doesn't do anything special, and everyone else lives in Germany, so what am I supposed to do? Oh, that's right, I can just go **** myself because my family doesn't meet your requirements.
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Dead
wavesorcerer14 Emerald Sparx Gems: 4957
#38624 Posted: 18:58:43 01/11/2016
Life seriously sucks right now.

I tried to be friends with your friend, and it almost worked. But now she hates me, blocked me, and pretty much wants me to die. Oh well. It's not like a want to be friends with a bratty girl. I just hope that she won't hurt you...


EDIT: I really want to patch things up with her, but I don't know how. Not only does she hate me more than she already did before, but I have no way to contact her... Ugh!
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"altissima quaeque flumina minimo sono labi."
Edited 1 time - Last edited at 19:56:30 01/11/2016 by wavesorcerer14
mega spyro Emerald Sparx Gems: 3847
#38625 Posted: 19:24:09 01/11/2016
Well excuse me for forgetting one thing. Jump up my ass the second you get home because I forgot one thing, that makes sense.
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Dead
SoulFly Emerald Sparx Gems: 4660
#38626 Posted: 20:47:59 01/11/2016
Aaagh i have this gut feeling for a good few days now. And i still don't know what it is. Tension? For what?
Excitement? From what?
Fear? Why?
Love? To who?

Aaaaa it has been so many years since i have been confused so much by myself
Gibe help
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Ligi
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willspyro Ripto Gems: 5862
#38627 Posted: 23:20:50 01/11/2016
After today I just want to die and resurrect tomorrow.
Greeble Emerald Sparx Gems: 4276
#38628 Posted: 00:52:15 02/11/2016
16 years and this is how it ends smilie

Why couldn't have been today...
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^ You all know it's true
mega spyro Emerald Sparx Gems: 3847
#38629 Posted: 01:01:11 02/11/2016
"Oh, you've put a board in front of your door. Why'd you do that? Now I can't get in."


HMMMM WOW WONDER WHY I'D DO THAT THEN.
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Dead
StriderSwag Gold Sparx Gems: 2769
#38630 Posted: 04:50:31 02/11/2016
alright, time to find away around this
if not, i guess ill end up fighting the power or something smh, this whole sitch is stupid, but that doesnt mean i wont bust my (awesome) ass to find some loophole


i dont have to conform to your stupid rules
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mega spyro Emerald Sparx Gems: 3847
#38631 Posted: 05:35:10 02/11/2016
**** OFF. YES I'M STILL UP, BECAUSE I CAN'T EVEN SLEEP UNTIL MIDNIGHT, SO ****ING EXCUSE ME FOR EXISTING.
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Dead
Riolu-Blue-247 Diamond Sparx Gems: 8843
#38632 Posted: 06:32:20 02/11/2016
Im so disappointed in myself... but at the same time I feel better. Having my blood spilled like this is what I deserve.


boy do i love relapsing.
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I just realised that I might not know what the hell is going on
parisruelz12 Diamond Sparx Gems: 7569
#38633 Posted: 07:01:25 02/11/2016
well that was frustrating

i cant ****ing draw and i should just ****ing admit that to myself
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looks like ive got some things to do...
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wavesorcerer14 Emerald Sparx Gems: 4957
#38634 Posted: 11:37:18 02/11/2016
Ugh, I've feel like we've switched roles now.

Waiting... More waiting... Endless waiting... I feel more alone than ever.
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"altissima quaeque flumina minimo sono labi."
StriderSwag Gold Sparx Gems: 2769
#38635 Posted: 13:36:47 02/11/2016
test #3: astounding progress made, definitely a success

this was a triumph
im making a note here: huge success
Edited 1 time - Last edited at 19:07:32 02/11/2016 by StriderSwag
Spyro Lover122 Gold Sparx Gems: 2147
#38636 Posted: 19:40:22 02/11/2016
Guess what? The girl that mimicked everything I did for 3 years is back at it again. I'm actually sick of her trying to make me think she actually does the same things I do. I'm so glad I'm not in school anymore, but I hate how she can still get to me elsewhere. She's now doing it with something that means a lot to me, and that bothers me so much. Stop being so fake.


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Whenever you reach too high, life smacks you down!
parisruelz12 Diamond Sparx Gems: 7569
#38637 Posted: 04:59:01 03/11/2016
can i go back to september where i had no responsiblities other than school
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looks like ive got some things to do...
Faust Blue Sparx Gems: 700
#38638 Posted: 05:38:35 03/11/2016
How the **** did we 'ditch' you? You could have just easily sat next to us you obnoxious *****.

Can you like, stop making wars out of such petty things? Stop acting like you're always the victim and actually grow the **** up.
StriderSwag Gold Sparx Gems: 2769
#38639 Posted: 15:40:36 03/11/2016
it seems like everyones ignoring me today and its really setting me off

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StriderSwag Gold Sparx Gems: 2769
#38640 Posted: 16:38:55 03/11/2016
i really shouldnt have to speak up as much as i am today, it feels like no ones listening to me...

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thanks for insulting the one thing i feel like im good at, now i feel like im completely useless, thanks : ^ )


*squidward voice* ALONE
Edited 1 time - Last edited at 16:45:45 03/11/2016 by StriderSwag
TheToyNerd Gold Sparx Gems: 2137
#38641 Posted: 17:12:56 03/11/2016
Man, I'm depressed as **** today! Why am I so ****ing lonely... Why can't I just be an active part of a conversation? Why do I have such a difficult time meeting new people? Why can't I just get someone to just ****ing like me!?
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Riolu-Blue-247 Diamond Sparx Gems: 8843
#38642 Posted: 21:06:02 03/11/2016
I hate that I feel so much better after giving in and self harming again. I wish I was stronger than that, but I'm just weak and useless.


Its going to be a long day, and I just woke up.
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I just realised that I might not know what the hell is going on
wavesorcerer14 Emerald Sparx Gems: 4957
#38643 Posted: 01:59:58 04/11/2016
Ugh...

It's been a few days since you've talked to me. Where are you? Are you okay? I feel so lonely... Please tell me you're fine! I hope she didn't hurt you! I miss you so much! Life just feels so weird without you... Why have you been avoiding me for this long?
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"altissima quaeque flumina minimo sono labi."
Edited 1 time - Last edited at 02:00:35 04/11/2016 by wavesorcerer14
HeyitsHotDog Diamond Sparx Gems: 8310
#38644 Posted: 02:17:09 04/11/2016
It's been a long time since I've been this sad. I know this is a step up for us moving into an apartment, but, as the past three or four years have been, I know I won't be able to call this place home.
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Hey is there anything you want me to bring for the rest of the week and if so it’s so cool that you can do something and just do it like that
Spyro Lover122 Gold Sparx Gems: 2147
#38645 Posted: 02:21:59 04/11/2016
Why do I do this every night? It's always past 2:00 AM, always. The reason I don't get sleep is because I don't see the point. I just don't see the point in sleeping, waking up, and just living in general. I'm going to have to admit it. It's turning out like last year. Oh, how I hated last year... I was so ill last year, I was sick of everything. I needed my dad, and I was still shocked at how my summer ended so horribly. It was the worst part of my mourning. I was a lot more sick of life as I am now, but it's starting to come back. Not sleeping until 6:00 AM, extreme anxiety and frequent panic attacks... It's all coming back, and I can't stop it. I'm still in counselling, but I don't know what I want to do anymore. Before my dad died, I didn't need a reason to live my life. I just thought that the future was yet to come. Now that my life has been completely shattered, I keep rooting around for a reason to hold on. Why should I have the suffer this way for the rest of my life? There's no hope left for me. I just want my old life back, more than anything. I was always a fool that glorified the past instead of the present, but now I want it more than ever. I wish I didn't have to live this way. My dad doesn't want to see any of us like this, but I just can't fight this anxiety and depression much longer. I guess I'm giving in again.


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Whenever you reach too high, life smacks you down!
ReshiramForever Platinum Sparx Gems: 5151
#38646 Posted: 03:31:12 04/11/2016
First of six.
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self professed austGAYlian
CAV Platinum Sparx Gems: 6253
#38647 Posted: 05:10:01 04/11/2016
Quit.
Riolu-Blue-247 Diamond Sparx Gems: 8843
#38648 Posted: 10:42:39 04/11/2016
I've remembered that I really don't matter, and realized I should have done more than cut up my leg, I should have cut a place that would have done more damage. It would be easier on everyone if I just died


Still not tired, couldn't sleep if I tried. Damn fireworks
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I just realised that I might not know what the hell is going on
Spyro Lover122 Gold Sparx Gems: 2147
#38649 Posted: 14:22:54 04/11/2016
That's it. History is repeating itself and I'm fearing what might happen to me this time. Great.


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