darkSpyro

today was chaos, i broke down and my scratching habit returned.... but my girlfriend came and visited me, which has made me so happy

i dunno what to do cause i'm really really really confused right now...

this applies to like 90 situations in my life rn

so I think I can finally put how I feel about progressivism into words..



/probably unpopular opinion

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so I think I can finally put how I feel about progressivism into words..

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I really hate it when people take an already established character and say "Btw their gay/trans now" (I.E. Kirk. Spok, Luke Skylwalker, Link.. to name a few). I'm completely fine with gay/trans characters, but ffs if you want a gay/trans character than please make one yourself. don't try and force it on someone else.

/probably unpopular opinion

i agree with this
the only difference i have is that if their gender/sexuality/whatever isnt established then im fine with it, but otherwise i hate it when people are like "luke skywalker and han solo are boyfriends" like lmao no han has had 2 wives and a kid stfu

I bet you'll ****ing throw out the ****ing victim card in the end of the argument of spoilers.

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I bet you'll ****ing throw out the ****ing victim card in the end of the argument of spoilers.

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I bet you'll ****ing throw out the ****ing victim card in the end of the argument of spoilers.

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i think you're both missing that it literally already happened

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I bet you'll ****ing throw out the ****ing victim card in the end of the argument of spoilers.

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i think you're both missing that it literally already happened

Aw man, I should of read more.

Even though dreams are without a meaning, that particular dream made me think about you. I may have to access some of my emotions now and even though it pains me to admit it, I kind of miss you. But past is past, it cannot be changed, the events that have happened cannot be reversed and therefore it is waste of mental resources to dwell on those memories. But sometimes getting lost in the sea of recollections make me feel calm and distract me from the constant maelstrom of grayness and indifference that is my mind.

That was my personal thought of the day. Carry on being personal, people…

Tomorrow is going to be of the hardest days of my life :'(

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Tomorrow is going to be of the hardest days of my life :'(

I believe in you. You'll get through it~

Beemo stole my old avatar. :V

It's been, uh, a long time since I've been on here huh? I'm assuming some people forgot about me but that's alright. My memory is really horrible. I don't know what made me think back to this site but I decided to visit. Not much has changed it seems. I've been alright, I guess. I keep losing friends and such so I don't have too many people to talk to. My depression seems to be getting worse like it does in winter so that sucks.

I remember I used to sit on this site for HOURS at a time. Like 4 or 5 hours nonstop. It was fun but probably not the best for my health. This was back during the whole Dotd fad, it's pretty cool to see how far the site has gone. That was like 2010? That's 6 years I've been on here. I may take LONG absences but I'll always come back eventually.

Well I guess that's it. Just decided to check in and say hi. Hope you all have a great day/night!

I really wanna post a pic in the picture topic but i cant take a good picture, there are so many attractive people here and I just feel like im way too hideous, i dont wanna post a pic and have everyone ignore it and then feel like im super ugly

and i hate when people say theyre ugly to get compliments, i just genuinely believe im hideous

^You dug for the compliment regardless. ;)
I'll toss you a canned "you probably don't look bad at all". Oh, and here's your reply

People are so willing to change for others, to move forward... But me? I don't ever intend on changing.

Not because it's what I want, it's not my deep desire to keep the same. But it seems my intention will be to never change, to never move on, to keep dragging the chain of this pain wrapped around my neck. I will always be a cold, bitter, hateful person. But... I will not be this way toward anyone but myself... In fact I think of other people so much more wonderful than me, I love them, even the terrible people I think deserve chance after chance. But me, what I feel toward me? I feel I don't deserve any chance, I don't deserve to be happy. Everyone deserves another chance besides me, the happiness they wish for...

I'm so cold and bitter toward this person that is me... That I wish to be someone else so much, but retain my consciousness just so I'm still me in a way but I can like myself more. I try to be even by creating so many different masks, different personas. No grasp on who I am, on loving who I am. And I know there are people who still love the me of now, but I completely loath and hate that person. I don't love him, he's the worst person in my mind.

Those are my personal thoughts on myself and how I know I am dragging me down and killing myself. All I do is accept it, my fate to die and be unhappy until I can be reborn as someone new. This is how I personally think of myself, and it hasn't changed for some years now.

I was forced to read an article for school, literally wrote a 4 and a half page paper on how stupid and biased it was. Still haven't done the ACTUAL paper I have to write on a set of 4 articles. <.<

I finally think I'm going to be okay, even if we aren't together. I'm going to be okay.

Even further down than I was a week ago

Haha, it's always the same time when I realize how late it is. Argh, I really don't feel like going to sleep right now. I feel tired but it's so cold in my room and I'm just not comfortable at all. Oh well, it's gonna be another long night, as always. You know, this wouldn't be so bad if it was easier to wake up in the morning. I either get no sleep at all or I oversleep, regardless of when my alarm is set. I turn it off in my sleep or something, and it's just stupid. But eh, enough rambling about it, I don't have the energy to. Well, back to my music now. Maybe that will help me out a bit.

I'm really confused about myself ever since a chat I had with a friend a few days ago.

I wish I didn't have to deal with this on a daily basis. There's always something to worry about, and I never get a break from it. I just need one day and night in peace for once. I'm always thinking about this or that, and it's been bothering me a whole lot more recently. I really want to enjoy these next couple of months, because last year was just horrible for me. I feel like there's no end to this constant worrying...

Turns out, being an antisocial shut in doesn't make me happy at all. Thank god I started hanging out with my friends more. I feel a lot more... joyous now. For the first time in a long while, I'm not in a weird state of pseudo-depression. I could get used to this.

Now if only I could get one of those girl thingies everyone is talking about... Hmmmm.

falling out of bed sure did make me wake up in a really bad mood this morning.

-Sun and Moon haven't shipped
-Someone left spoiled milk in the fridge, and I ****ing drank it because I thought that, it being in the fridge, meant it was safe


todays going to be a ****ing DOOZY

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If you're creating something then please don't, under any ****ing circumstances, bring your politics into it. You alienate people when you do that.
1. The people who want to see your thing, and are trying to escape the real world for a bit.
2. The people who agree with you, as petty as that is, it's why this whole "Boycott Hamilton" thing is happening.

As the creator, I think you should remain unbaised as possible, to please your audience. This is why I like Rebecca Sugar, because she's managed to make a progressive show without it feeling preachy.

just my two cents

I feel extremely volatile.
Mmm if someone comes and rubs me up the wrong way i will not answer for the consequences

@paris

For your reassurance, spoiled milk only "spoils" in taste and sour milk is safe to ingest months after it sours.
See: Casu marzu
(Don't click if you are eating or have a hard time keeping food down)

My day:
3 hours hunting for Shiny Kyogre and using Masuda Method for Ralts.
2 Hours playing Black 2 trying to get the Shiny Haxorus
1 Hour Listening to remixes of Pokémon Mystery Dungeon music.
3 hours watching the anime
1 hour here
1 hour doing other stuff.

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My day:
3 hours hunting for Shiny Kyogre and using Masuda Method for Ralts.
2 Hours playing Black 2 trying to get the Shiny Haxorus
1 Hour Listening to remixes of Pokémon Mystery Dungeon music.
3 hours watching the anime
1 hour here
1 hour doing other stuff.

Kyogre is Shiny Locked if you're playing Alpha Sapphire. Just thought I'd let you know in case you were trying that.

Actually I was on Heartgold for the Kyogre, and Alpha Sapphire for the Ralts. Thanks anyway.

Glad to see people leave me after like 3 days. Alone again. Starting to feel suicidal again

I really, really, really, really, REALLY just want a weekend home alone. Is that too much to ask for? Just some time I can do what I want, and get some things done.

meh...

Every limb burning.
But why.
I haven't done anything.
Odd

Also inspiration where are you. I want to draw something

Yep, that’s it… To hell with this modern happiness-obsessed, short-term , self-serving, social garbage culture which promotes emotions over rationality and is not able to deal with misery and is more concerned about doing what feels right instead of what IS right. Guess what? Misery is as important in life as happiness. Being content is the right way. And don’t get me started with this blind ill-informed idea of anyone can be what they want to be. Hard work can make you better than average, good or slightly better than good but efficient level of genius is only available to a selected few and those few eventually matter more in long-term than those who don’t. But who am I to complain, right? Based on my age I should be glorifying this attitude culture of illusion which distracts people from reality but instead of that I just go on about things like an old out-of-touch git. But I’d rather be a young man with realistic expectations rather than a media-controlled puppet fueled by memes and ridiculous self-importance.

I’m sorry for this sort of angry outburst but in recent times I’ve realized that I have tried to do something or even be someone that is out of the realms of possibilities about my true nature. I am misanthropic, antisocial, cynical and downright nihilistic human being who finds comfort in interesting subjects (science, music, history, storytelling, philosophy) and being my own free man who even in his own emotional seclusion be a functional part of society.

That was personal, etc. etc. The same old thing, etc…

Nintendo, you better not screw me out of this $100 3DS on Black Friday... I don't have the time or the patience to hunt this dumb thing down at multiple GameStops. I have money, let me spend it on your thing!

I am not obligated to spend time with you every week to watch a dumbs movie just so you can talk over it, when I could do something else. It will not be "more fun" if I'm there, I will hate every second of it if I have to sit around for 2 hours to watch a ****ing movie. I ****ing hate you, my weekend was great and I didn't feel terrible for the first time in months, and then you tell me I have to spend time with you, and you complain when I play the Pokémon game I payed for. Anytime I feel good, there you are to stomp out hope and happiness.

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Nintendo, you better not screw me out of this $100 3DS on Black Friday... I don't have the time or the patience to hunt this dumb thing down at multiple GameStops. I have money, let me spend it on your thing!

i can guarantee NoA will find a way to make it exclusive and screw you over anyways
if you come back from black friday with one, feel free to say you told me so

i'm a goblin

So you can't be called edgy even though you call me that all the time? I mostly stay quiet now because if I try to talk you mostly attack me and I try to defend myself. I guess I shouldn't say anything then.

it's 4 am again and why does this keep happening to me

All I got to say is k.

Might as well leave calls when you join.

A month, its not long but Im gonna miss her so much. I know she said she'd keep in contact but I know she will be so busy... I already miss her even though we just said goodbye.