darkSpyro

Ugghh I ate so much today...I feel so fat and disgusting. Guess I'll starve myself for a few days to balance out those calories.

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Ugghh I ate so much today...I feel so fat and disgusting. Guess I'll starve myself for a few days to balance out those calories.

same dude

Quote: Takadox360

Ugghh I ate so much today...I feel so fat and disgusting. Guess I'll starve myself for a few days to balance out those calories.

Just eat lighter the next 3 meals if you really feel you messed up.

judas almost killed himself and then i almost killed judas
ive had a bad night

There's something that feels pathetic about entering your third decade and having failed to do relatively basic human contact.

Ugh! 1:30am and I'm goingto have to be up at 4am to get ready for work
Why can't I get to sleep?

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**** it's 4:00 AM. Right, so if this is going to keep happening, I'm going to do it the hard way. Tomorrow I'll try and wake up early and completely wear myself out. Then I'll hopefully crash at 9/10 PM and get my sleep back to normal again. It's going to be really bad for me, but this is my last and only option. Sometimes you have to use force. I hate this stupid sleep pattern, insomnia is driving me insane. I'm getting sick of this ****.

It's 4:00 AM and I need help.

Thats my life, get your own.

I've been single for more than 5 years and I don't really care. As time goes by, I care less and less. I've become so confortable with my solitude that I don't expect to ever be in a romantic relationship ever again, and I guess that's fine.

sometimes i listen to something that makes my heart throb

and maybe, just maybe, things will be okay

I don’t know. I have this gut feeling that I did something wrong but eventually when inspecting the whole picture I did not do anything out of my normal behaviour. It is not like I’m made for this world anyways but still. I don’t have the necessary intellectual tools to put my point in coherent sentence but what one could say to this is that I will not give in to the guilt because the reason for that guilt is eventually meaningless and serves no concrete purpose in my own personal life choices. No more… no more. This is me and that is that.

That was my personal thought of the day. Carry on being personal, people.

Why is it so hard to get optimistic, but so easy to get pessimistic? One little thing pisses me off, then WHAM I hate the world again.

am i a kirby villain

because i sure feel dededepressed

i swear if you tell me that my lobby wasn't good enough even though i wasn't supposed to preclose then im not going to be happy

I get that she has a respiratory infection, but she has to go to school for some time. Hell I barely recall a time she actually went to school. She needs to at least at the very least turn in her missing assignments. Sorry I just hate being woken up at 6 am because someone has to yell at another to get them up. Along with her staying up past god knows how long.

oh my god tomorrow is going to suck.

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Uuurgh I have ONE class where I have to regularly check for excercises and read ****. Of course I forget about the texts for two weeks straight and they don't explain the work until I'm finished and can't fix anymore. Why won't these painting projects end already so I can have time to plan out responsabilities and not be a moron.

I would like not to have despised those opportunities when I was studying, I wish with much hope that on next year my parents give me one more chance, I understand that probably no by many of my failures, but just one more & I can prove the opposite. The difference is that now I know what I want to study & the importance of the study in life, something that years ago I did not have.

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oh my god tomorrow is going to suck.

it actually wasnt that bad :o

There's something beautiful in the feeling where every new track you make is now the best you ever made.

For once, I'm confident in what I have. For once, I feel like I'm kicking ass.

Thanks mom....supportive as always.

Incredible desire to humiliate someone here. Shouldn't want to do that. But I want to.

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*School's yearly "here's what bullying looks like and here's how to deal with it" speech* My brother checks everything in there for bullying behavior, but your advice is useless.
"Avoid that person?" Well, we all live in the same house, that's not happening. I try to stay away from him by having the door closed at all times, but then I get yelled at for not spending time with family. I much prefer being alone and watching videos than being outside and constantly harassed.

"Tell an adult?" That might work if any ****s were given about this. I just get told "it's fine, he'll grow out of it. That's just how kids are." It doesn't help if he's made me afraid to even be outside my room or I'll get harassed.

"Tell them to stop?????" Wow, yes, telling them to stop is such an odd idea! Thank you whoever wrote that, for that wonderful idea! Why didn't I think of that?

"Walk away?" Isn't that just the same advice as number one? What's next on the list?

"Don't go near them anymore?" Well, I can tell where this person gave up when writing this. Oh wait, no effort was put into this at all.

"Confront that person without being aggressive?" Well, that's exactly the same as "tell them to stop." No ****s were harmed in the making of this lesson. If we say the same things enough times, it'll be fixed.

I can't even show any emotion at all or I get harassed. I might as well just be a Dalek. They don't get to have emotions either.

i wish people would just leave me alone about school.

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*School's yearly "here's what bullying looks like and here's how to deal with it" speech* My brother checks everything in there for bullying behavior, but your advice is useless.

That's pretty much what they told me back then, before going "well none of this works? then it must be your fault".
Actual advice is seeking help from different adults. If the current ones have decided they don't want to deal with it, they won't listen to that silly youngster. I only got help when I started talking with other people and they were like 'holy **** girl change schools already, this isn't normal", THEN my parents listened that it wasn't "just me".
Of course, my case was school bullying, but just the advice of giving the message to different people might be of use. Maybe not saying outright, but finding a way for them to know.

Oh yeah, and today's healthy dose of the little voice in my head saying "who cares if you get gnorced, ruin that person's life here and now", because man do I love being everything I'm against but being nice is exactly what got me here

so yeah im basically the same as usual
lonely and angry
but hey its not like i dont deserve it anyways lmao

I honestly can't stand school anymore...

Today, vell, yesterday, I had another rare occasion where my family agree that I participate in a videogame tournament, but will be truth? Or they are kidding me? So many years they always said the same: that does not help me in mi life, videogames are the worst, that destroys the mind, blah blah blah. Now that as a secondary goal I want to be a professional Youtuber lately my family gives me some support with that.
That gives me confusion, knowing my family that for many other things one day they say YES, but another day say NO being literally with the same thing. What the **** they really want? Decide please, I prefer a big damn NO or a okay YES, but not this **** indecision & then I ended up in many problems for disobedience, or that all the fault is of my best friends for some bad influence against them.

A veil of wrong.
I am tired and i got stuff to do.
I'm going to pep up. by killing a man

justice
rome may not have been built in a day, but it sure as hell fell in one
time to watch your empire of lies burn

ahaha

$60 seems a bit cheap for a beaded dragon, but I trust you know what you're doing.

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Hurricane is supposed to be here by morning. Really hope things turn out as ok as you were saying and not as much as she was. She really wasn't being helpful and her *****y mood wasn't doing anything good for either of us. Though we are further in so I'm kinda thinking we won't see it as get as rough as the coast will. Just gonna chill out in my blanket fort anyway.

Be safe, Seiki.

Holy **** muscle memory I tell myself to not do thing for 30 minutes straight and as soon as I sit down I do it.

I guess I am an emotionless and valueless monster or a machine then. It’s all fine by me actually. I’d rather be like who I am rather than trying to act and conduct myself in a way that is against my basic personality. Of course this will someday bite me in my backside as all of my choices in life have done. But what do I know anyways? I’m just angry, grumpy and misanthropic man.

That was my personal thought of the day. Well, you know how this goes. don’t you?

Did I just sleep through the storm??? Like we didn't lose power, we seem to be pretty ok.

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I guess I am an emotionless and valueless monster or a machine then. It’s all fine by me actually. I’d rather be like who I am rather than trying to act and conduct myself in a way that is against my basic personality. Of course this will someday bite me in my backside as all of my choices in life have done. But what do I know anyways? I’m just angry, grumpy and misanthropic man.

That was my personal thought of the day. Well, you know how this goes. don’t you?

I have been said to be heartless, cruel, emotionless and machine more times than I can count. And I thought I was more eccentric and personality rich
But maybe I am just a mad mad man
Or it is a thing that happens a lot in this country

I don't want to exist today

Today was a pretty good day....let's hope it stays that way.

I have to work 10 and a half hours next sunday
kill me actually

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I have to work 10 and a half hours next sunday
kill me actually

i feel u brother.

Yesterday was strange, it felt as if it were a Sunday: no one in my family had wanted to be dressed, lunch at home, almost all day in bed sleeping, neither of my parents did some of their jobs, the only activity was eating & watch TV. Even for myself was lazy to be on my laptop, play some videogame or do my personal things.

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that's your excuse for the past year and a half, and you don't even care to tell me?

Oh yeah I wondered about that game for a bit. RIP Arokai, you had lot of shady **** behind the scenes from start to end.

getting really sick of this treatment smh

Nothing to see here.