darkSpyro

Boy, I sure do love becoming nonverbal and having to hide in my room so my mother doesnt shout at me because she thinks I'm just 'not talking' or ignoring her.

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Why did I do that. What the actual **** is wrong with me.
That wasn't a good idea, I knew it wasn't a good idea, oh my god.
Kill me.

Yesterday morning it was snowing a whole lot, yet it was as hot and sunny as summer throughout the rest of the day. I've woken up again today to find the sky blue and the sun shining yet again. Well, at least the weather is nice!

I still don't understand how you find that to be "morally offensive", but okay.

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i have a lot of emotions today and few of them are good

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My school trousers ripped. I've never felt so fat in my life.

Shoutout to the Yanks who don't have to wear school trousers.

shoutout to the girls who can't be bothered to shave their legs so to trouser town we go

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Ugh body dysphoria is so annoying

Leaving after seeing you for three days is so so so hard. Long distance is suffering.

Quote: Drawdler

I'm mulling over wether to chat with anyone or just go binge JoJo. I wanna do both but the latter is so much easier and this feels like the only free day I've had in weeks...

Do the latter. I won't mind!

mfw everything that is currently unfolding

actually what was i thinking, doing this ****ed everything up and now i've got no chance at this

im depressed again :, )

ok another weird thing happened!!

I'm useless/worthless/pathetic....

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I'm useless/worthless/pathetic....

No, you're not. You're loved.

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I'm useless/worthless/pathetic....

I agree with HIHD. You're a real cool person, please speak to someone on here if you think otherwise, because we all love you <3

Outside of dS I am....

Okay.

im pathetic tbh

You are a deplorably self-righteous ass.

being invited to something you really want to go but you already have plans

i can't help but feel that we used to be better friends

just being a dweeb don't mind me

why must i cry over this why why

I don't mind not having to ever worry about car payments, trying to find a parking spot, and stuff like that. I'll be able to move to area that has busses, and I can walk from the closest bus stop to my then place of work/ to my place of residence. And I don't want a place to myself, I'll try to rent a room somewhere. But, what about shopping for necessities or gifts for others, sure, I could carry a couple of things, but not being able to drive, ever, has its limitations. As of right now, I'm either at work or at home. I'm never not with someone, I feel so trapped, I just want to leave, go somewhere to be alone for a while. I live in small town ga, there's nothing I can walk to, except for the town over where I work, but I rarely get time to myself after work. And there's always a fear of running into him, I don't know what I'd do if I saw him in public, how I'd escape his presence. I told my mom today that when i go to college, it needs to be far away , or at least my job after college. she's thinking Atlanta, that's not nearly far enough. she doesn't understand, she thinks its people i dont like from church driving me out. but its him, its always him. I can't go anywhere without being afraid of seeing him, and I'm not staying around here to risk it. what would do if i saw him in public, i can't drive, theres nothing for me to do. Go up to a stranger, put my arm around them and whisper my situation to them so they'll pretend to be my friend and save ne ?

/ramble

I can't make one sarcastic comment without everyone quoting me.
But when someone else does it, it doesn't happen.

i hate my mom so much
i hate it when she gets drunk and then screams at me and blames me for things and i have no idea what she's even talking about
and then says i'm lying
i'm ready to snap
i hate everything and everyone and i'm going to lock myself in the closet lol bye

Again with this “you have so much potential, don’t let it go to waste” garbage. Why is it so damn hard for people to understand that there are people who are not ambitious, who don’t care for traditional life values and don’t buy into this rubbish after-school special culture which puts happiness on such a pedestal that it has become larger than life itself? And this is especially frustrating when you know that you are not that talented and good at things people think you are. It is different thing to memorize constantly working patterns and formulas and then working with them than to actually be able to use real brain capacity to solve problems etc. on authentic intellectual level. These are the moments when I react on even some sort of emotional basis since the concepts around it are without any tangible value and interest.

That was my personal thought of the day. Carry on being personal, people…

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... I'm so ****ing lonely.

I'll leave this here~

and hey if you ever need someone to talk to, my guestbook/pm inbox is always open.

Eh, you're kidding right? I just don't know what to think about all that, Im'ma gonna go think for awhile and that's not good cause I have a migraine and I feel as though I'm gonna throw up.

omfg....

Local Demigirl Gets Overconfident, ****s Up Big Time

Spring Break is fun
Waking up at 4pm is fun

it seems ive missed good old ds drama,, what a shame what a shame

i wonder what happened

i'm ****ed

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I wish my mom wouldn't get angry as much as she does... She's been losing her temper a lot more recently.

awww, and I was so hoping to make it up by watching a movie tonight...

Okay skypes' zoom in on a large work of avatar is beyond repair. I really don't want to crop, but it's forced to that option at this point.

Guys discord is better by default now.