darkSpyro

If the thoughts topic has become sticky, why not make the "What song are you listening to?" sticky as well? Aren't they both just the same anyway? Importance-wise? I don't even know what it means when it becomes "sticky" anyway.

Only one more to final to go! Let's get psychological! <.<

My thoughts now in a nutshell. http://www.youtube.com/watch?f...d&v=bt42hh6lce8

I'm never going to smile again if you just leave my life...

Also, why do you care that I ran off? Why did you make me return? Just let me go...

I'm getting fed up of my little pathetic life.

I might be in a lawsuit against Kurui

im not good with this

i never feel farther away from you then when im right infront of you. cause your always talking to him. do you enjoy getting kicked and having you hat stolen? you even know he with sombody, heck it you best friend. am i doing somthing wrong? if i take your hat will you then pay attention to me. you really confuse me somtimes

I seem to always find myself in lose-lose situations. I'm the definition of a loser, and of a lab rat.

Why do I get these random moods...? One minute I'm sad, the next I'm hyper and just like a normal teenage girl. But I don't feel like I can bea normal teenage girl that you see in TV and IRL, because of how I've acted and all. I just wish I could be less hyper, but I am to hide the other side of me. I'm going to try harder in high school, and definitely change. I don't want to be that hyper and jumpy. I want to see how you see me through your eyes. Probably like a retard you feel sorry for. Ugh, I hate myself.

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I hate growing up. It sucks! I wish I could go back and be, like, 4 in 1998 so I could be there when Spyro first comes out. Stupid nostalgia.

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I miss you so much, but when you come back, it's going to be hard. Very hard. I don't know how they will react and cope. Especially that *****. I ****ing hate her. And the other one....GRR WHY DOES LIFE HAVE TO BE SO HARD!??!?!? D:

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I am so scared for high school. Terrified. Petrified. I am going to fail my maths GCSE's, I know. Goddammit! I'm trying real hard in English, I'm top of the class, but the other day proves that I can't do my final exams, I will have a breakdown, I will fail, you will think less of me...****.

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You're so caught up in your own pathetic life that you don't realize I need HELP to become a voice-over artist. H E L P. At the moment I'm trying to make it on my own but with school and all, it doesn't look like I will be able to. And my life is just so stupid. Stupidstupidstupidstupid. It sounds crazy, but ever since I was old enough to appreciate the voice acting in Spyro, I've been more interested in who does it and when they did it. Pamela Hayden and Tom Kenny, THANK YOU FOR INSPIRING ME!!! And, I'm so glad I take after my real dad, the guy of many vocal talents

I've gotten a sudden burst of, what seems to be happiness. I'd like to think it's because of the great friends I have by my side.

Tell me, what's it like to feel wanted, to be loved by your peers, to actually be respected for once in your life, because I sure as hell have never felt it. I feel like my only purpose in my life is to be a laughing stock. A misfit. A complete failure. or at least, that's how they condition me. They treat me like a worthless pile of refuse. They make me hate myself, condition me to think I'm worthless.

But that's when I rise up. When I gather my confidence, and tighten up my belt like Picard to face on the unforgiving world. I gather my confidence...

Only to be struck back down again, in far more force than before. Every aspect of my life regulated for the punishment of being unique. For being different. Punished for being that one person that doesn't "go with the flow". Each word that you harshly stab into what's left of my soul leaves a wound that will never heal. I'm practically psychologically tortured for my beliefs that I can make a better society than there is today. People say it will get better, but so far it really hasn't gotten better at all. In fact, it has gotten to the point where this hurricane I call my life seems as though that it will never end.

I swear, everytime i talk to you i get dumber.

I don't feel superior to you people(yes you 3 Jerks), but I feel...different, better than all of you.Except in my case, I actually AM.I don't bully people and I'm not a jerk."Sticks and stones will break my bones, but words will never hurt me"My Self-Confidence has even gone UP.So THANK YOU!Not only that, you all failed MISEREABLY!Ha!.
(IRL)
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You people....you vote for me...yet another thing that makes my self esteem go up!I feel like the class is on my side for once.Even though you only voted me to be the leader of the party!
(IRL)
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It's great seeing you like this.*hugs*You're awesome!
(Here)

I don't know what I am feeling. It was such a short period, but we have gone so far apart. You used to always be with me, laughing. But now it seems like a chore when we greet.
But then you and the other guy... have gone ever so familiar with each other. I shouldn't care - in fact, I am a douche for doing so - but somehow it bothers me to no end. Before t his, I wanted nothing more to be friends, and I thought I still did now, but I seem to subconciously be wanting more. I am trying to suppress these feelings, but it hurts. Now I just don't know what I am feeling.

I can't help but sometimes feel like saying...

"I'm here...I'm here..."

To some people. Like a small abnormality in a heartbeat. "I'm here." Adsum.

"I'm alive, I'm still here."

Rght now I just want to punch you and these other jerks off the balcony

If any of those people do that again I ****ing swear I will ****ing murder them. You are an amazing person and you don't deserve this. I am in shock. Nobody messes with my best friend, even if I'm in a different school and in another town I will always be there for you. Them bastards can suck my t!ts and go die in a ****ing hole. I'm-actually, NOT sorry for posting that language. **** ALL THE BULLIES IN THE WORLD.

Hm.

Seems to be another behavioural trend going on. I'll try my best not to be sucked into it like it seems many others have been...

Or maybe I am just more crisply aware because I myself am on edge...

Bleh! You're not winning today!

Quote: Spyrobaro

i think i'm done

Bai..

I wish I could slap you across the face.
And trust me, if that had been my Gohan you broke, I seriously would have yelled and screamed.
I don't care who you are but you can't go breaking my stuff.
You've lost my trust.
And broken my heart.
Thanks, just thanks.

Wow, this game's music is simply wonderful.

If you treat your friends like bickering school kids when they most need you then, I don't want to be your friend at all.
If simple coding will bring us together, then simple coding will tear us apart.

Look at those two >:T
All snuggly with eachother >:I
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;_;

is funny because is true.
but i think you made him feel bad about himself, which i personally feel that he should know how obvious he is.
but....i believe there was an easier way to put that, user.

where are you?

If only you'll answer my PM heather.

I live in a drama. Everyday i wake up and am in tears when i realize im not in Narnia.

please talk to me, im worried.

I like being this happy. It feels great.

Sme babies were dropped on their heads, but you were obviously thrown at a wall. Seriously, if people didnt have electricity, THEY WOUDNT HAVE FLASHLIGHTS.

hmmmmm

HMMMMMM

HMMMMMMMMMMM

I wonder if this would work...

Damn, seems like every university in the country wants me. So much mail......

OMG DRAGON CAMO STOP STEALING THINGS FROM FB

Quote: Bravo101

OMG DRAGON CAMO STOP STEALING THINGS FROM FB

I dont. I dont even like facebook

if it turns out you were here today im gonna kick myself

So I have calmed down, but I am still really frustrated with you on the inside.

This year is the hardest year of my life, and at this point, it's looking like the last year of my life. Probably won't live to see Christmas, even. But you just don't make things easier for me. You make me feel like everything I do is going to amount to nothing. You don't even think about what you say most of the time, you just throw out nonsensical comments.

I have no responsibilities? Are you kidding me?
I have the Leaving Cert. I have a girl that I really care about that I need to support (yes, it may be self imposed, and maybe she could do without me, but right now, I want to be there for her when she is down and to support her). A ton of guys in school developed a sexual interest in her, and were seemingly about to use my Facebook account to snag photos of her and gather information about her, and I am actively working to prevent that. I have dealt with suicidal people in the past (ironic, no?). Meaning, people's very lives have been my responsibility.
Your financial carelessness has become my responsibility. I had to give you a loan of a large sum of money so you could pay for house renovations that you knew you couldn't afford. And I will never get that money back, so I'm financially screwed. Let's not forget about all of the outings with your friends that I have paid for. Or the fact that I paid for many school fees by myself, such as my €150 ECDL Course, which isn't the highest school fee I have paid either. Most school kids get their parents to pay for these things, but I've paid for many by myself. And I never blew my money on toys, video games, or other luxuries. But all of my savings are gone now, thanks to you. And that ain't even all of the responsibilities I have.

I have been tired and worn out and sick because of all of this stress in my life. I didn't go to school this morning because I was really, really exhausted from yesterday, and I still had to deal with my inability to sleep. I can't believe you tried to compare me to my sister. The reason she could happily go to school the other day, after a late night, was because she was at a Justin Bieber concert. She was living the dream. But I was completely worn out from school, drama in my life, and from the Maths tutoring (and I was exhausted enough going into that, but I still pulled through). I haven't nearly the amount of freedom that my 13 year old sister has, and I'm nearly 18, and when I was her age, I was still really restricted. I'm stuck in a harsh, monotonous routine.

And I may have someone in my life that I will love forever more, but I'm not dating her. We are not in a committed relationship. It'd be a dream come true if she did get together with me, but she's not going to. Because of that fact, I feel like we're just drifting apart, and while I've made an effort to keep us close...it's starting to look like I'm desperate. So I'm almost just letting her do her thing now, and slowly ceasing communication with her. That angel in my life that brought me great joy, can no longer be around me, and I'm left with nothing. I HAVE NOTHING TO BE TRULY HAPPY ABOUT. And you completely ignore this!

So yeah..."mother"....not sure I like calling you that anymore. You've never really tried to talk to me about how I am, or anything like that, I was always there to make you look like you had raised a smart, polite, and good kid. But truth is, you never raised me. You may have fed me and all of that kind of stuff...but that just means you were a good housewife.

But all of the growing up, emotional nurturing, moral development, etc...all of that was entirely up to me.

So thanks for making me feel completely horrible around you, mother.

I like it here.
I like it here in darkSpyro.
I love all of you.
Unless you don't, if don't wuv me I don't wuv you either D:.

You're all awesome guys, no matter who you are or what you look like, I still love all you gais. *hugs all*

omg, you posted!

*screams rape*
Anyway

I cant get you off my mind. Your on it constantly. Im to shy to talk to you. Your smile melts my heart. Your eyes are the light in the darkness. Your laugh helps me sleep. I have fallen hard for you. We both are maniacs and should never be allowed to drive. We have fun times together. It pains me if i hurt you, infact it pains me to hurt anyone. Your popular, im not. You hang out with the highschoolers, i hang out with my little group of friends. I trusted you with my deepest secret. Your the type of person who can act gay and no one thinks anything of it. I cant because everyone would know in an instant that im gay. You make me uncomfortable when you act like (i dont know how to really say it. You like scrub against me or like joke about certain things.....). Your one of the weirdest and craziest friends ive ever had but then again, thats whay everyone thinks i am. I dont know how to say some of the things you do in a few words without people on here thinking im being stariotypical or rude. I mean seriously, you scrubbed against me in math and purred (im not even joking). In 6th grade, after lunch you would always scrub and cuddle next to me in science when we had to read. I mean, who does that? Then in Spanish we were making cubes out of paper and people were making jokes about how it looked like a ***** before it was folded. Then i was forced to work with you and then you take it and tell me
"This is what happens when i see you" and you make it straight to look like a *****. I blushed like crazy. So are you playing a game? Is this all an illusion? Or is this just a joke? You have my feelings messed up. Im probably overthinking it but still, i need to know.

That talk you two had... I wonder, does this mean that, you in particular...will accept me for who I am? That I'm free to allow myself to...love?

please don't

I'm just everyone's little failed experiment. I'm not worth **** at anything, and I know. I'm sorry. I would have killed myself by now, but only three things are keeping me on this earth. I'm so sorry for everything I've ever done here on dS to any of you. I probably just made it all worse...

So I'm going to leave here. I'm not worth it, or so I've been told countless times, and I'm probably just another pain in your guys' asses. I'll try to be back. I'll be back when I feel better, which may not even be at all.

Goodbye.

I can only go so far!


"I don't know what or why you're being so forgiving.. I don't deserve any of it!"

But of course, even if he accepts...there's still you to worry about...

I can never win.

Im getting.... Feelings for A user, and... They aren't my b usual "herpdrrp iluv u bb" kidding arOund feels... But, I can't. .. I've been hurt before... I can't let my guard down again....

I have no idea what is going on. Meh...