It used to be that people thought I was the ugliest thing on the planet, and I'd constantly hear comments about how disgustingly skinny I am, how gross my face looks because of my acne, and how annoying I was.
Now, three people have a crush on me, and my cousin's friend thinks I'm hot.
I... Have no idea what to think of myself anymore. I'm used to hearing "you're ****ing ugly nobody cares about you and you'll never be loved". And now this. Wat.
Clearly much of my present life have to be hidden from my family, if they come to know all the things I do, they'll think I'm a ******g crazy & that my life is a trash. Even sometimes they have thought that I should leave, because according to them: I'm just a waste of money & a uncomfortable company.
Not worried for myself,but really worried for parents, and if someone might think I'm being heartless for not reacting with moping like others usually expect e_e' I just hope everyone's taking this as well as they tell me over the phone.
--- SO I'LL GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT
(What I need is never what I want)
I'm not stupid and you saying that just pissed me off even more. Did you think I wasn't listening when you told me that? So why did you change the story? You ****ed yourself cause I know what you said and no I will not take the blame for it falling apart. I think it's time for me to rethink everything you said, put the pieces together and complete the ****ing puzzle. I'm done with this.
^ A musician is anyone who plays an instrument, conducts, composes, or performs music. As you put it, you make music. You can definitely call yourself a musician, CAV. c:
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Judge not, and you will not be judged; condemn not, and you will not be condemned; forgive, and you will be forgiven; give, and it will be given to you.
My lower back hurts so much, nothing I do stops the pain. I need to slow down start saying no and just relax for awhile. I know what would help stop the pain but I'm too ****ing exhausted to do that. I wanna curl up in a ball, cry til I can't cry anymore and just fall asleep but I can't sleep cause I'm in too much pain.
You suck you suck you suck you suck
You have no right to do that to me without knowing the whole situation. Besides, just because you don't like me doesn't give you a reason to bash on me and ruin my day. Go die in a hole.
Lol why do you feel the need to show that off? You aren't a special snowflake, nobody cares, you aren't gonna get any special attention for it. Get over yourself.
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The reason why I suddenly act so pissy whenever you talk about them is because I can't stand them. I really don't understand why you're even friends with them.
You dad, I think he doesn't want to come out of his room ever because you too also "nag" him on questions. You *****ing about Grandma asking simple ass questions is so ****ing ridiculous.
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If you cannot handle me at my pumpkin spiciest, you do not deserve me at my pumpkin sweetest
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What the hell is this? People actually are saying that I’m more competent and capable than I give myself credit for? People giving me compliments and saying nice things… doesn’t that just make you sick? I feel awkwardly but yet delightfully wrong. It is kind of creepy...
So there you are. That was my personal thought of the day. Carry on being personal, people…
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I might give you more opinions... for a small fee of course.
Lonely, and upset at nothing as usual. It's even more frustrating being fully aware that you're being needlessly mad at something but everything that comes out of your keyboard/mouth is bitter or at least not as happy as you wish it was. Wish I could blame that on the birds making a ruckus on my yard but I shouldn't be this pissed off.
--- SO I'LL GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT
(What I need is never what I want)
Edited 1 time - Last edited at 20:55:42 04/12/2015 by Bifrost
I should give up and quit harming the life's of others. The thoughts of doing things that usually end up in a quick trip to hospital or eternal blankness are slamming into me like a bullet....
Even honesty is these days awarded with a ticket to hell...