darkSpyro

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I don't understand why people think that in order to no longer be considered a child, you have to give up every last thing that may seem childish. By this, of course, I'm referring to video games, cartoons, figure or stuffed animal collections, things like that. The way I see it, it's only childish if it takes over your life and becomes too big of an obsession, to the point you're not paying attention to important things going on around you.
So why? I asked "why don't you play Minecraft anymore?" when our cousin told me you all hated it now. You said "because we grew up and stopped playing childish games". While I agree with the fact that Minecraft is VERY boring and honestly disgusting to look at with its awful graphics (coming from someone who usually doesn't mind bad graphics, mind you), I dunno how losing interest in a game like Minecraft- that both kids and adults love- has anything to do with growing up. Come to think of it, however, you've always had an odd idea of what mature was. You've told me to stop playing Skylanders because "it's childish and people will make fun of you, so go play GTA 5". You also have a damn stupid view on what games people should play because of their gender. "Quit liking Sly Cooper, it's a guy's game". Oh yeah? Quit liking Avenged Sevenfold, it's a whiny emo brat band. See how stupid that sounds? I mean, it's a fact, yes, and so is the fact that Sly Cooper was created with a male demographic in mind, but that doesn't mean that I shouldn't play it. Just like there's nothing stopping you from listening to Avenged Sevenfold. "Quit ****ing playing Pokemon like a goddamn 8 year old!" Quit ****ing screaming like a goddamn 8 year old! You're aware most 8 year olds are playing your precious GTA 5, right? Lol.
You seem to base maturity simply off of people's interests. People have a habit of doing that. What does it actually mean to grow up, anyways? In my mind, growing up is learning who you really are, learning and growing from your mistakes, failures, and success from the past. Growing up is experiencing different things in the world, becoming more reasonable and rational, putting more thought into things. And, of course, getting a job, making your own money, and moving out of your parent's house. In which of these is it required that you give up your favorite games, anime, figures, and books in order to grow up. "Quit liking this this and this because it's childish"? I had no idea that growing up required you to give up everything that makes you happy, that makes you feel alive, that helps you meet other people, that helps you deal with the awful **** you might be going through. I had no idea that growing up meant you had to be miserable. I had no idea that growing up meant you had to throw aside anime and cartoons that were deemed "immature" for shows as beautiful as Family Guy. ... Ha, not.
I'm gonna show you, brother. I'm gonna learn how to drive, possibly before you. And I'm gonna get a job. I know I won't make much since it'll probably just be a summer job, but what little I do make I plan to use to help pay for food, maybe buy gifts for family members for the holidays, and whatever else is left will go to my own savings. What I save up, well, I'll most likely use it buy some nice Figma figures, maybe a few anime DVDs, some video games, clothes if I need anything new, and if I save up enough over time, maybe even my own fursuit. And I'll be able to go to furry and anime conventions on my own, since I'll be able to drive.
We'll see who's "mature" then. The guy who plays GTA and Halo who can't drive and doesn't have a job, or the anime-loving furry who plays rated E games by choice, has a job, and can drive.

CF's nonsense, read if you wanna fall asleep from boredom.

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You know, nothing is keeping you from reserving this stuff yourself. Why am I the only one that has to do it? You told me that you reminded me once before the break. I don't even remember that. I have a life too, you know. I can't remember everything. Maybe you could have reminded me, since you were so eager for this to happen? But no, as usual it's my fault even though you could have just as easily done something about it yourself. Just because you appointed yourself as the "leader" of the group doesn't mean you can't do some of the work. You expect us to do everything and then when something doesn't get done the way you wanted it to, you blame us even though you could have done something about it yourself. That's why I'm just done with this project. I honestly don't care anymore. If you want something done, get off your lazy ass and do it yourself.

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I just want a new body.. or something. I can't even describe how much I hate this one. People just assume that I want to change to impress guys. No. That's not it at all. I just want to be happier. I want to be able to look in the mirror and actually like what I see. I don't want to look like some fifteen year old trying to be older than she really is. I want to look my age. I want to feel my age. And then they try to say that looks aren't the most important thing and I should be proud with the way that I look, but actually it is important when your self esteem is so low you sometimes wish you were dead. I always feel and sound so shallow when complaining about this but what the hell am I supposed to do when I am this unhappy. I don't even understand how a person can hate themselves so much, physically and mentally. But people just don't get it, I don't know why I try to even talk to them about it.

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For the latter... I kinda feel the same way. I have bigger issues to worry about and it doesn't upset me as much, but I've never felt comfortable in my body feelings or looks wise. My chubby cheeks bother me the most. At the same time, I don't know what I'd prefer. I don't think about it much because like I said, there's much bigger stuff for me to deal with now, but you're not totally alone.

I feel like a bitter fart today :T

It used to be that people thought I was the ugliest thing on the planet, and I'd constantly hear comments about how disgustingly skinny I am, how gross my face looks because of my acne, and how annoying I was.
Now, three people have a crush on me, and my cousin's friend thinks I'm hot.
I... Have no idea what to think of myself anymore. I'm used to hearing "you're ****ing ugly nobody cares about you and you'll never be loved". And now this. Wat.