Let me guess, after spending eight hours riding in a car with a total stranger, you're gonna make me spend the holiday with more people that I barely even know, right? Honestly I'd rather just stay here, I really don't ****ing care.
To a point where my boyfriend starts to ignore me only because my parents treat me like a child while I'm almost 18... What is this cruel life? I don't ****ing know anymore.
I just love it when certain people insist they want my advice on something, only to completely disregard what I say because I'm totally wrong even though these things tend to be something I research a lot.
Helps my self esteem. /sarcasm
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I find it depressing how deeply insecure I am about some things I enjoy and wish I could just, you know, say 'Hey I like this thing' without feeling like it will be the worst thing ever.
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Argh, so much stress, I feel like I'm gonna burst.
how do i make ypo dissapaer im sick of seeing you around im sick of dealing with you i just want you to leave me alone adn stop trying to make friends with me
you hurt me really bad i jsut want you to GO AWAY AND LET ME BE HAPPY FOR ONCE
Why. Are. You. Doing. This. To. Yourself? You know how bad smoking is for you. You know it will kill you. Just because your grandma has smoked for a long time and is still fine (which she's not) doesn't make you invincible. It doesn't matter that your friends are doing it. It doesn't matter that it's what teenagers do. You're just being a complete idiot to yourself and society.
man i need to start keeping a diary or something - every single day now i feel the urge to just let everything single thing that might be in my mind out to whoever i'm talking to and feel an overwhelming urge to just talk about all these dumb thoughts too - and thanks to that almost everything i say feels really blurted out and i end up regretting a lot of it
it feels like i'm a tap and i just can't seem to stop the water from running without clogging up the pipes (in this case, making myself feel smothered) ;;;;
holy cow no you're not! you're a wonderful person and you shouldn't ever be called that ;n;
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Judge not, and you will not be judged; condemn not, and you will not be condemned; forgive, and you will be forgiven; give, and it will be given to you.
I suppose it was bound to happen really. I mean I guess I kind of liked you a little while ago but I never knew it was possible to basically being completely in love with one person to being completely in love with another that fast. I feel bad in some ways and like people will judge me but also that I've found someone else who is essentially perfect in my eyes the strugglessssss. not that I have any chance with them anyway lol. why is everything so confusing.
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The darkness only stays at nighttime, in the morning it'll fade away. Daylight's good at arriving at the right time, it's not always going to be this grey~
You better not ****ing say it tomorrow because I'm going to go off on you if you do. I'm not dealing with your **** when you don't even know what the **** you're talking about.
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"Beauty fades with age but a beautiful soul lasts forever."
People need to stop trying to feed me that bull. What about those who were never really attractive to begin with? Do I just get uglier with age? Yeah, that makes me feel loads better. People just use that saying as a nice way of telling you that you aren't really attractive and to make vain and self-absorbed people get over themselves.
I'm the twenty year old who looks fifteen. People never use the words pretty and beautiful towards me. And if they do it's just family or friends saying it because they feel obligated to. People only say that I'm smart when in reality I'm actually an idiot. I'm not as kind as people think. In fact I'm actually really bitter and uncaring. I'm not really talented in anything so I don't know why I'm pursuing a career that's so artistic. I feel sorry for myself too much and don't worry about others enough. I don't have a beautiful soul. I'm a worthless, good for nothing piece of crap who worries too much about petty ****. Then again, if I don't worry about myself, who would. It's not like anyone really cares anyway. Even if I died tomorrow people would get over it; I'm replaceable. I dunno. I'm tired of being me. I hate myself, everything about myself. I'm so tired...
Well, would you look at that, you're single again. I knew it was only a matter of time before it happened. Was our friendship really worth it? I hope it was because I don't plan on being friends again.
I'm really sick of living in this place. No matter what I do, I'm apparently the bad guy even if I've been more than nice to everyone.
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You're just a spoiled brat who gets pissy whenever he doesn't get his way. You try to play the big tough guy, with your cocky smirks whenever someone gets you into a corner you can't back out of, but only make yourself sound like a complete, unlikable idiot, especially when you eventually start roaring at others or trying to make low jabs at people. Seriously, "I acknowledge the problem but I'm not changing it"? And yet you have the gall to always throw the "you think you're always right" card at me like your words are supposed to have substance? Was that supposed to be make you sound cool, like one of your anime action heroes? Because it seriously doesn't.
You've even outright said you have no plans to move out. You're 23 years of age and you have no intention of leaving your mother's house, no intention of changing, no intention of even at least trying to be a CLEANER person to make this house a more pleasant place to live in (because you leave a trail of dirt and trash everywhere you go). You may have a job and you may do good work at it, but that doesn't mean you suddenly shut everything off when you get home, and expect everyone to accommodate for you. Especially when you always throw it back in people's faces.
I may have "shook hands", but I'm not OK with any of this, I am adamant that, in THIS one thing at least, if nothing else, I'm not doing anything wrong, I'm not being unreasonable. Try and guilt trip me all you like, but you won't bring me down. You can tell me about how "change needs to go both ways", but I'm the only person in this house who EVER tries to change, and it's clearly not doing anything ultimately, so who is the real problem here?
More than anything though, none of this would frustrate me so much, if you had good reason for all of this. But you don't. You just ****ing lack any sense of ambition. That's all it comes down to. You just want to coast through life, with your reasonably paying job, in a house where you pay very little bills (I'm ****ing unemployed and I'm more consistent with paying my "rent" than you are, and at this point I pay just as much as you do), smoking cigarettes, going out for drinks, and playing games and watching anime. Say whatever you want about me, mock me for my slip ups or act like you are above me just because I have not yet got a job, but at least, I have ambition, and I AM willing to see where I am going wrong and change that. No matter how much you ignore my efforts, doesn't change the fact that I actually know the meaning of the word "effort", unlike you.
Thank goodness I passed the French assessment, I'm so happy just to even be able to remember the words for it. But all the panic and paranoia from it's gone now... for another month until I have an actual French talking exam. Ffs scottish education and prelims, don't put pressure on me when I already have more important subjects to be revising for.
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I can survive scalding hot coffee and being whipped for 24 hours a day. Digestive biscuits or riot.
I didn't mind what you stated, because that is true with most female characters to an extent. But you could have worded that A LOT better. I mean if you are not specific and use the word "finally" you kinda said "This game is filled with sexualized men, women, and monsters. AND THEY NOW MADE A CHARACTER THAT ISN'T SEXUALIZED!". Also skimpy clothes doesn't mean the character is necessarily sexualized. They're comfy in their clothing. That's legitimately what means. I mean if that were the case we wouldn't be complaining about getting cat called or labeled in public just for clothes.
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If you cannot handle me at my pumpkin spiciest, you do not deserve me at my pumpkin sweetest
icon from Empoh
You people keep talking about your passions for things and I kind of have a hard time wrapping my head around it. "I'm doing what I love, it's my passion." "Film is my passion, if I don't do this I don't know what I'd do. And I'm sure it's the same for you guys." I lie and say sure. But maybe that's why I'm so unhappy and unsure about all of this. I don't know what my passion is. I don't really even know what passion is.
This stress is causing my TMJD to ram up to the max. Horrible tinnitus in one ear, terrible jaw pain (I can hardly open my mouth without cringing), neck, shoulder and arm pain, and awful migraines to top it all off.
****.
Have tinnitus constantly for the last 4 years. This changed my life... for the worse. I have become a more sad person who doesn't care much about the things he used to care.
when people type things out with a lack of punctuation and all, i don't really care
but when people type things out all messy like (i.e. i sjust dont nkw what ot yo anymoe) and use the excuse "oh i was panicking/shaking/eh", it just seems like, at least to me, it's a cry for attention, this happens on tumblr sometimes and it's so annoying just take your time so you can be understood, you are just wasting your time and my own
if you're really worried just say so and you will be believed no need to type like someone with a motor disorder
Friendly advice to all those who (like me) hope to have kids in this, the era of the internet: Hide your credit cards from your kids if you're not going to monitor their online activity.
That is all. <.<
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