I can't keep doing this. I can't just keep living like this. I can't live seeing you every day, and knowing how much I really want to be with you, and how I know I may have a chance, but I'm scared. Very scared. I'm scared that it'll be too sudden, and I'll be turned down, and I won't have a chance with you again. And I can't take that risk. So I'm left with the hopes, and the dreams, that may never end. But maybe I'll get that spark of confidence. Before reality comes back to bite me in the ass, that is.
My life can be described with that one circus song right now