When your nightmares are becoming reality, then that's a sign that you're playing a video game. Unless you're me. It could have been a coincidence, but for three times?
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"sTORM, my parents just told me something that RUINED MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW that Smarties have different flavors?!" ~ShadowMewX
Oh Gooooood I cannot wait for this, because Idk how much longer I will be able to handle this.
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Can you stop. I get that you want me to "go out and make friends" or whatever, but I'm perfectly happy just spending my weekend alone in my room. This is my college experience, not yours. I'm not you, I'm not outgoing. And I'm okay with that. Quit trying to push this stuff on me just because you never went to college. And constantly bugging me about it makes me want to go even less. Just stop..
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Just let me die... I want to die... Make me die... Kill me now... Stab me... Shoot me... Run me over... Push me off of a buidling... Break my neck... Take my breath... Off my head... Just something to bring my death... Do something... To get rid of this depression...
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--- Like fallen snow, I lay on the ground and wait for my turn to fade away, no matter how unique I seem. It's my gift to you... A true sacrifice...
I honestly cannot stop crying every time i watch a movie or do somthing or hear a song that I heard in my childhood, like ocean man at the end of the spongebob movie,
Rn I'm watching toy story3 and just cant stop crying,
Oh yeah… I love my best friends with all that I am. They are more like my family rather than just friends since I’ve known them both for two decades now. Countless of experiences, thoughts and whatnot I have gone through with them and I will never have it any other way. But I guess that this weekend or at least this time I would have needed them for my side but they are obligated with other duties such as work and romantic relationship. I respect them from those. They are my idols on which I base many things upon but now I feel certain level of loneliness. Well… luckily I still have my liquid friends with whom I can enjoy my nights.
That is my personal thought of the day, carry on being personal, people or whatever…
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I might give you more opinions... for a small fee of course.
IhatemyselfIhatemyselfIhatemyselfIhatemyselfIhatemyselfIreallyreallyreallyreallyreallydo. And the only ****ing thing I can really do about it is cry. Again. Looks like I have a headache to look forward to tomorrow. Again. Whatever, I'm about done. I'm tired of everything.
I need some friends who have my kind of interests and are around a lot and don't rely on me to make the first move for when we meet up or even so much as talk.
It'd just be nice to know there is more than one person in the world outside of my family who has me spring to mind when they want to talk to someone or it'd be nice to gush about things with people or whatever.
Otherwise I just end up trying to talk about stuff on silly sites like this and everyone just sucks the fun out of everything eventually, if not outright attacks people from the get go.
I type this and as I do so, one of my favourite YouTubers and his mates are talking about how the internet is wonderful for finding people who will care about you. But I just can't agree. I'm at a point where I feel like desiring new friends as if it were a good thing is like desiring a loan from a loan shark as if it were a good thing. It might seem immediately good, but I'll probably end up screwed over anyway.
Aha thanks !! Now you've said it to my face huh? I'm not even surprised you told me that a) my opinion doesn't matter and b) I have no say in this situation because I already knew that was true (:
I've been feeling so great about myself lately because of how much you insult me daily!! I've totally not been wanting to cry every single day...nooooo!
And you wonder why I'd rather be with my friends and boyfriend all the time. Maybe because I forget about all this **** that's going on right now ?
Honestly, I can't wait until this weekend when I get to go to my bestfriend's house for a couple of days and get away from you! (: Thanks for making me feel like **** daily, love ya too. <3
As I said before, you're gonna ****ing miss me when I'm gone. I can go on and on and on about fake and rude you are, and you talk about other people. You wouldn't believe it, but you don't know WHAT I know. I can use it against you, but I'll save that for when I really need it. (:
Oh, and you decided to put words in my mouth this morning? You made me sound like such a *****! Guess what? I'm gonna do the same and make you sound like more of a ***** than you already are to me. I've got time, I have two months, I just gotta pace myself and make sure I get it done.
This is gonna be the worst year of my life
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I just bought a large bag of popcorn from a movie theater without watching a movie simply to get the bag it's in which has the Mockingjay symbol on one side, and Gale's face on the other. I regret nothing.
It is quite interesting that how a man’s mentality and mental well-being can change when one of the man’s best friends invites over to spend time with him and get to know the concept which is making him happy. Thank you my friend for bringing light to the darkness and calm to the sea of nihilistic confusion, depression and overall misery. These are truly the moments which eventually make the life worth of experiencing without having premature endings.
That was my personal thought of the night. Carry on being personal, people…
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I might give you more opinions... for a small fee of course.
You know what? I never have self esteem at all and I'm constantly hating myself, I'm never proud of myself, I despise myself, but I feel bad for myself for once. I really do. I deserve better for once. Yea, most of the time I'm thinking things like "oh, yeah, you deserved that, you're an idiot" but I didn't deserve today. I don't deserve to be called an idiot and other things, to be told my opinion is **** and doesn't matter by someone so close to me anymore.
I'm used to it all. And now you're starting something new with me. Now you're starting to put words in my mouth. You did it more than twice and I'm getting mentally hurt because you're telling people that I'm saying all these things that I would never say. It's so damn frustrating because I feel so helpless. I've never felt this helpless in my life. I don't have a say anymore. You're making it sound like I said all these things I've never even thought of. I thought everything that was physically going on was enough but now I've got a whole new aspect added on which is mental problems. Are you kidding me? I just got over anxiety, i don't need it again.
People think I'm crazy for saying this sometimes but I've never agreed with it more. Trust no one.
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