I hate my friends irl sometimes.
... Wait, no, they're not my friends, they're my "friends" so I hate them 24/7. I only really care about one of them.
The rest of them are ****ty friends, even when compared to me.
You don't make fun of your friends for things that make them happy, or try to make them rethink things that are perfectly fine. Only if an actual problem or threat is present right then and there.
Seriously. It's like they want me to be miserable. I'm sure that's their intention at this point.
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Oh nice my mom and my brother are fighting.
Good god. He got ****ty grades. He's unhappy. Mom, stop being a ***** and let him keep his damn games and phone.
And this is coming from someone who fights with him every day.
And GROUNDING IS NOT THE ONLY EXISTING PUNISHMENT. "PLEASE DON'T TAKE MY PHONE" "I have no other choice" DUMBEST **** I'VE EVER HEARD. You could, oh, idfk, FORCE HIM TO CLEAN THE HOUSE EVERY WEEKEND HIMSELF, MAKE HIM BE THE ONLY ONE TO TAKE CARE OF THE DOGS, AND MAKE HIM WASH DISHES BY HAND DESPITE THE FACT THAT WE HAVE A DISHWASHER. Maybe limit his time on the Xbox if you feel it to be THAT necessary. Just stop overusing the SAME GODDAMN PUNISHMENT EVERY TIME. It's like you're too ****ing lazy to take charge and you just say "oh you did something dumb I'm mad gimme yo **** u r not getting it back until you do smart people things forget other existing and effective punishments". It's. Laziness.
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I miss you a bit today... I hope you'll be alright.
I hate my friends irl sometimes.
... Wait, no, they're not my friends, they're my "friends" so I hate them 24/7. I only really care about one of them.
The rest of them are ****ty friends, even when compared to me.
You don't make fun of your friends for things that make them happy, or try to make them rethink things that are perfectly fine. Only if an actual problem or threat is present right then and there.
Seriously. It's like they want me to be miserable. I'm sure that's their intention at this point.
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Oh nice my mom and my brother are fighting.
Good god. He got ****ty grades. He's unhappy. Mom, stop being a ***** and let him keep his damn games and phone.
And this is coming from someone who fights with him every day.
And GROUNDING IS NOT THE ONLY EXISTING PUNISHMENT. "PLEASE DON'T TAKE MY PHONE" "I have no other choice" DUMBEST **** I'VE EVER HEARD. You could, oh, idfk, FORCE HIM TO CLEAN THE HOUSE EVERY WEEKEND HIMSELF, MAKE HIM BE THE ONLY ONE TO TAKE CARE OF THE DOGS, AND MAKE HIM WASH DISHES BY HAND DESPITE THE FACT THAT WE HAVE A DISHWASHER. Maybe limit his time on the Xbox if you feel it to be THAT necessary. Just stop overusing the SAME GODDAMN PUNISHMENT EVERY TIME. It's like you're too ****ing lazy to take charge and you just say "oh you did something dumb I'm mad gimme yo **** u r not getting it back until you do smart people things forget other existing and effective punishments". It's. Laziness.
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I miss you a bit today... I hope you'll be alright.
*sits at my desk feeling awkward and now useless* Yep.
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Well, that was one of the most interesting dreams I've had for a while. And despite what was happening, it was actually pretty cool.
Well that was inspiring, sad, and thought provoking at the same time...
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It also brought up the point that I don't really know who I am... I know who people tell me I should be, and how other people tell me I should be, but I don't even know who I want to be.
Well, I have a small clue, but everyone says it's bad... except for you guys?
Then what am I supposed to do?...
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I'm getting sleep tonight, this time for real, I hate Algebra that takes me until 1:00 am.. I could just work on it early, but.. why am I so lazy? ;<.<
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I feel like I should do something, but I don't know, everyone else seems happy, but i'm just a little depressed..
i still cannot believe i put my whole heart into something and was so nervous to tell you and you just acted like i never even said anything at all
meeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhh
why is it so hard for me to get out of bed i don't understand what my problem is
i wanna actually get up and do something but at the same time i just don't want to???? ough
You know, you can come to me if you have a problem right? You don't have to worry about burdening me, I'm stronger than you think...What actually burdens me more, what depresses me is that when I feel like I can't do anything to help you...I want to help you and cheer you up like I used to...I want to be able to do something, I'm always available to talk...So don't hesistate, whether you want to do it to get things off your mind or just chatter...If you don't open up you're not just hurting me but yourself...Rely on someone else for once...lean on someone's shoulder for once, don't cry or hurt alone...Because that's my place, that's what I'm supposed to be and who I am...And it should never be you.
My friend...We still are right?
--- Like fallen snow, I lay on the ground and wait for my turn to fade away, no matter how unique I seem. It's my gift to you... A true sacrifice...
God I'm tired. I know what I'm working for, and that's what keeps pushing me on to continue. It's only 2 more days, then i'll be done.
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"The circumstances of one's birth are irrelevant. It is what you do with the gift of life that determines who you are."
Mewtwo - Pokemon:The First Movie
That was amazing it was amazing I know it was only like... a few sentences... THAT CONVERSATION WAS AMAZING.
I was really nervous too, which... that's the only time I'm like that.. which I don't know if it means something, ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
Even though I still know in the back of my head this won't amount to nothing, I'm still hopeful..
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I really need to figure out who I am, I'm always sad, and mad at the choices I make, and I'm scared for what will happen when I'm on my own, even though I'm also anticipating it, :/
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I really like the friends I have irl, because they understand me, besides, most of the time I'm no in the mood to associate with people...
The people that I just met... wow.. they think I'm some sort of "popular" kid who's talking to them.. I really don't want to be mean to them I don't like them... they're just... too nice.
Ugh
me: i want to bleed and die
a year almost gone by and im not where i should be
?????????
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comcast better stop lookin at the **** i have downloaded and saying its copyrighted because eventually they're gonna find something that'll take their eyes away from my network :^)
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"The circumstances of one's birth are irrelevant. It is what you do with the gift of life that determines who you are."
Mewtwo - Pokemon:The First Movie
I have a project to present, and I have all the facts and I'm not afraid of saying them infront of the class, but when I stand in the center of the room and everyone stares at me my face turns bright red, which makes people stare more
I'll just look at the poster th whole time.
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"The circumstances of one's birth are irrelevant. It is what you do with the gift of life that determines who you are."
Mewtwo - Pokemon:The First Movie
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