darkSpyro

I don't know if I fit very well in DarkSpyro anymore. I keep finding myself clicking topics, scrolling all the way down, then going back. I never come here for the Skylanders and Spyro boards. The Fan Art and Fan Fiction areas are overrun with Skylanders art and fan fiction and though there's some good stuff, I can only read so much with the same characters! I haven't found many RPs I feel in touch with since the majority of my RPing buddies left, and hanging out in Forum Games makes me feel like I'm not doing anything productive. Finally, though I used to be an avid poster in S&N, I feel like I can't keep up with all the trends and inside jokes that are springing up. I don't think I'll ever be able to leave here permanently, but I don't know where I'm supposed to be anymore...

haha ive almost killed myself 5 different times now

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• Cosplay is immature
  
• Why dont you listen to normal music that has words in it? ((Was actually what was said to me today and the reason why I finally decide to post this))
  
• You're too old for plushies
  
• Use your money for something you'll use ((I WANT TO GODAMMIT BUT U NO LET ME. >.>))
  

Gee, thanks for trying to change my interests for the 100th time just so I could fit in with 'friends' at school who are people who can be big a$$holes. I've already told you they're out drinking under age a c**p lot. I don't want to mix myself with those people even though our town is super small with only a handful of kids living here my age. I'm fine with the few good friends I have, and my friends across the internet. I don't need to change myself to please others, I've already told you that.

If I buy stuff I don't use, its my own fault, I can handle my own mistakes. I have too much money than I know what to do with ((500+)) and I'm happy you let me order that one cosplay a few days ago.
It seems like apparently according to you when I go to order something that I don't use stuff I order, but I do. Its only action figures, plush, video games and a cosplay for the year if I get a chance to go to a convention that I'll ever buy, nothing dangerous, and your excuse for this is that this embarrasses YOU?.

And for you asses at school that think I'm a retard for liking anime and video games, and that whenever you see me drawing a animal, a person or anything whatsoever and say "Oh is that a Pokes#*t?!" Can you please just f-ing shut up? You're more immature than me if you look at it. Have you drew as much as I have to consider it a hobby? Probably not. I've known some of you people since pre-school, and just because I still like Pokemon doesn't mean I'm immature. In fact, I've noticed that you guys knew about FNAF and Slenderman before I did, and just when I started playing those games, Its 'Immature' and what some of you BI Trans Canada Highways call a Poke-****.

Dont even get me started at how mean you guys are to other people too. I still feel bad for a friend from my class when that a girl from my class decided to grab your crotch in the middle of a Junior Rangers P.H.A.S.E meeting. Poor dude...
Dont get me started what she decided to draw for a Pictionary exercise for the word 'Safety'.

God my classmates are messed up. Just shut the frick up and let me like my interests in peace.

And that's my rant because I have to go back to school with my handful of pals and these idiots on Tuesday. Yay *Sarcasm*

"She's so cute!"

Sometimes I wonder what the point is... Some days I just want to end it.
And some days I panic and put down the knife...
I wonder if I will ever be brave enough to actually do the world some good and remove myself... this sick creature from existence

You were my strength when I was weak. You picked me up and gave me that little push to keep me moving forward. I did rely on you to much but I really needed you. I still do, but I don't want to be a burden to you. You always made my day just by saying hello and asked me how was I doing. I meant everything that I told you, you really are special and important to me. I'll still be around for you, that I promise you. I won't change at all, I do love all my friends and I think you know that. Always think of me as the one that *hugs* cause the truth is we all need a hug just to get through the day.

I'm really sorry. I definitely should have trusted you more. It's just, after all the backstabbings and loss I've had recently, there's very few people I trust. And after the previous incident, it just kind of seemed like you'd do it again. I've just hardened myself I guess. My stomach's doing backflips I feel so bad. I'm really, really sorry. I don't deserve forgiveness.