darkSpyro

Ok this weekend kinda sucked. Now I can't really say much about where I want to go for a birthday lunch?

Packing it all up. I don't age anymore.

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damn... this wont end well.
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Losing whats important to me is starting to happen more and more. It's awful.

SENPAI NOTICED ME~ <3 <3 <3
.....Like almost 6 months ago. X3


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I don't understand why my brother gets everything without asking..

I'm just so ****ing depressed, I can't seem to be able to get off this slump.

okay where the **** are you

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*depression intensifies*

Did I put too much importance and meaning behind the number 18?

If you want me to talk about my problems...your going to have to work hard..

Because for most of my life, I've been told my problems don't mean much..and I need to deal with them myself.

Having someone to help is a new feeling..I don't know how to describe it..

I've been ice cold all week and no matter what I do I can't get warm. I feel awful.

She needs you. Now is NOT the time to be all "leave me alone." She's in pain, and you want her to leave you alone? What kind of boyfriend are you?

A wrench has been thrown in the gears that were supposed to help me make up my damn mind. I thought I was making progress.

I have been on this godawful planet for 14 years. I may still be a child but I'm not stupid. I know what's going on in my family and my life, and for you to talk down to me and say that I have no say and no rights is just ****ing out of order. I know what's going on more than you! I am going to make something change and I don't care what it takes. I will not be spoken to like that. Oh, and then you have the nerve to whine at me for disrespecting you? Take a look in the mirror, record yourself throughout your daily life, then come back to me and tell me you still want me to respect you. I'll be waiting. If this was me, I wouldn't respect me. I'd go die in a wet, sludgy hole, and that's even more than you deserve. ****ing unbelievable.

Don't tell me.
Make me worry. >.>

I love you and thank you for loving me.

Deep deep inside. Something tells me that confidence may still be misunderstood. I just need to be reassured I guess.

Me: I did want to be counselor there..but now I'm not so sure
Boyfriend: Why?
Me: Because I'd go for a full summer.
Boyfriend: No.

That was so cute. I just can't get over it.

Well, that was freakin' ass tedious.

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No.

No.

No.

NO.

Stay away from me. Stay far far away.

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*was too lazy to read the fifty pages I missed in this topic*

What's up guys?

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Can I go one day without being agitated?

It's started. The Relationship Apocalypse. Most of my friends have boyfriends and girlfriends and pressuring me to get a guy. So I dropped a hint and loads of people think I'm a lesbian heheh. All I said was that I'd never give a guy a BJ. They don't know that they're right lel.

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Welp, that happened.

Thanks for stomping all over me again and making me feel even more like I didn't have a particularly good birthday this year. If you said something sooner I would've probably still been upset but I wouldn't have had the expectations that I did.

Along with you constantly making me feel bad while insisting that I'm a good person.

>tfw when you learn you hsve 24 pages of homework and an exam tomorrow
Fml

Why is everything so triggering? I've been literally having mini heart attacks and anxious breakdowns about everything lately. I've been trying to calm down, but every time I'm all happy and content, something happens and I either start to feel like trash or I get too scared to talk to anyone. Heck not even the youth trip helped. I thought getting out of the house, let alone out of the STATE was going to help me get my mind off things, but I only had more worries and anxiety attacks there. This really sucks.

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I've lost motivation to even do anything... and I keep failing my math test.
And barely anyone is there to even help me get back on my feet again...
Does life really hate me this much?
Does life really want me to die this badly?

My life is great. I love my family. I love living. So why do I always feel so upset? I'm never happy anymore. I hate talking. I hate being around people, I feel like I'm a burden. I always feel awful all the time and I don't know why. I don't know why I'm always sad. I have no reason to be. I don't know why I always feel like everyone hates me. I know they don't. But knowing doesn't get rid of the feeling. I always feel sad, I never have a reason behind it. I always feel like crying, but I have nothing to cry about. I always feel like I'm worthless **** and sometimes I just don't have the motivation to tell myself I'm not.

My life is so happy.
So why am I so sad?
Not knowing why is what's worst.

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Worthless **** like me doesn't deserve to breathe this air.

If my eyes weren't so dry. I think I would have cried for that scene. Holy ****. I have been warned about this anime being sad.

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I'd really like a hot chocolate right now. If only the coffee shop was open during lunch.