darkSpyro

...................You're an idiot, and you're more pessimistic than even I am. Not even kidding.

Wild, I know how you feel, I feel the exact same about someone else.

Hmm...weebby, I'm not completely sure what to say. Probably this headache.

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Oh, you're back again. Drinking.

My view on you just changed for a minute..
You are pretty amazing people. :P
....AAaannd it's gone.

You are so lovely and beautiful, and it's a shame that not many people realise how special you are in general.
No matter what the situation though, I will think of you like this.

Now suddenly you're very clingy to my boyfriend? He's mine now. Back offfff. .-.

I'm glad you want me to be more open with you. I'm still paranoid as hell about you, but I would like to stay up and talk to you some more. Too bad I stayed up too late already, and pretty much cut down all my time I was going to play my DS before going to sleep, but it was nice being able to talk to someone and actually have them listen.
Thank you. I hope that happens tomorrow as well, at school.

What a mess we've made us.

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You misunderstood.

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Say it to me personally ( I doubt you will.)

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You are so aloof. Disheartening.

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You're probably right.

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I chickened out.

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This won't go anywhere.

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You're very sweet.

Why can't you stop doubting yourself and just pm the person already. It's not that hard. This would be your time to prove yourself. Things won't be as terrible as you think. Just do it already.

you should also go to bed and stop typing to yourself in second person.

#self loathing 2am

What a lucky occurrence.

There, now was that really so hard?

I wish that it could be. I really want it to. Because whatever I do, I can't stop thinking of you.

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Just come back.

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Give me another chance. I really need it.

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I'm mad at myself and will never forget the date 11/27/12. Never.

Uggggh just take me home already. I can barely do anything from here. You won't let me use your scanner (MY scanner that I let you borrow .-.;;; ), I barely get to use your computer to type on, and you don't even pay attention to me while I'm here so why keep me here.

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You're probably mad at me. But there's not much I can do about it.

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You're so sweet when you want to be. <3 Too bad this is a side of you that's completely rare (or maybe forced). You were half-sleep anyway. But it means you have it in you to be loving. I guess you were just never given the chance. I'm luckyky.

I'M SO HYPEKRUYFSGHDJIPpdoiuhygsfhkm;lwsdygfds

Is it okay to feel
Like I want to be your greatest friend?
Yet I feel
Like I am just a shadow in the back.

And I am sorry that I am nothing. And that I don't speak in discuss. I care for you, and I want you to know that.

I am away, but I am not alone.
I was alone.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
I'll learn
The art of flight.

Why are you suddenly giving a small aspect that you are afraid of me?
It's like all suddenly you're a puppy that has his tail between his legs when ever you talk to me. We hardly even talk, so I don't see what got you to be afraid of me. Unless that message that someone said about you and me change your aspect toward me.

Now it fells that you are worried about what comes out of my mouth when ever I talk to you. Which I don't like. I may get defensive, but that doesn't mean I'm angry while I'm at it. I just don't want you to get the wrong idea.

That dream was awful. I know this can be seen as irrational by some, but I'm scared it may actually come true.

Because you honestly frighten me. With your anger...and how unwilling you are to let others explain themselves.

I'm not ignoring anyone. Phone has a hard time accessing my guestbook or replying. D: this is part of why I wanna go home.

It almost seems like I'm out to be intensely spiteful towards you. That's not the case, I'm over things much more than you may think.

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SKYPE STOP SIGNING ME IN AS ONLINE OR I WILL e.e

I can't believe I did that. That was the most braindead, idiotic thing I could have done in that situation. And for what reward? I should have took the obvious hint that it wouldn't be good to say that in those circumstances. Now I have ruined my reputation with multiple people.
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Welp, that was extremely awkward and embarrassing. I would do anything to not go through that situation again.

All I had to do was listen to 30 seconds of your newest song and I immediately felt like an awful sack of **** with no ability to do anything. My jealousy continues to know no bounds, and while it somewhat motivates me to not give up on this, it also makes it extremely difficult to listen to anything you make without feeling upset about how you never bothered to even look at my email asking for help.

You may not know it (or meant it), but you've turned me into a wreck. Worst part is that I shouldn't feel this way.

I had another chance, but I failed yet again, I need more time to make this rhyme, but I probably don't stand a chance.

What's on my mind?
How fracking impossible chemistry is.

There are days when I think that suicide is best to fix the pain in my heart, my soul and my mind. But there is always something or someone (non-human) that stops me. Why!

I'm trying to start a conversation, can you not say anything other than "Yeah"? Add something, say something else to start a conversation?

You know what's becoming oh so very poisonous - or like some kind of radiation?

The entire policing scenario going on.

So, let's watch for one of us to slip up, and if they do - and disagree with the general mindset - then let's just exile them and 'debate' them to oblivion.

I'm getting tired of it. I'm alienating myself as much as I possibly can, but it still hangs as the other side hasn't yet hung up their phone and are still yelling into it.

Screaming, even.

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The fact you stayed instead of leaving like you usually do and seemed like you actually wanted to talk to me, pretending or not, especially since my best friend wasn't there today, was really cool of you..

This is perhaps the weirdest thing I could say to anyone, but - I think you'd make a wonderful mother. I truly mean that. Obviously you can't be one now, but I have faith that one day, when you're older, a kid or two will have a beautiful mother to look up to.

I know you'd say otherwise, but you really do show some of the qualities...if not all
of them...

I'm so sorry I never called you to say thank you. I feel horrible about that. And now there's no way I can fix this because you're gone.

I'm confused... ;~;

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Why has no one lashed out at you yet?
You are SO annoying with all your "Oh poor me!" crap.
Seriously. You remind me of annoying Facebook people...
What is your problem?
All you do is complain about your life!
I'm pretty sure these people are only playing along with you...
Unless they aren't, then that's just...amazing.
You irritate me alot.
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Felt good to let some of that out..XD

I guess you're out of my life now. You were a good friend.

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How can you sit there so nonchalantly when news like that hits? Maybe I'm weak-willed, maybe your interior is made of pure brick, or maybe we are looking at this world through different eyes. People want to praise me for being strong, but really I'm not, in and as of myself, but I try to be strong for everyone else who cannot be or will not be. Why am I always the one on the pedestal when it's you who tears out into a violent wind with such confident force? And yet they're always trying to pull you down. I hear such bad things about you behind your back. But they don't seem to soak into you at all (as much as they wouldn't me of course but only I get mad when such things are said about you).

People say about me "She hides it well.", but for you they say "He has no emotion for anything." That isn't true, no? Because I see you at your softest. I guess I look like someone who is sweeping it all under a rug. I wish I could hide it more naturally, like you. At least then nobody would notice me cowering inside myself.

As of today I realise how scared I am. Terrified actually. Being told I will be in this severe pain for the rest of my life. Incurable. Disabling. She was so down to Earth about it that for the first time it sent a shock through me. I begged to be told I was crazy. That they could fix my mind and it would be over, but no, this is my reality, being trapped inside this failing body that doesn't know how to function. With a real sickness, a physical sickness that will linger, that they don't know much about.

I think I just want to hold you and forget that I feel as if someone has cracked me with a baseball bat in every possible location....

I wish I could fall asleep.

I'll wait until my phone charges fully to get into bed...

(who am i kididng I am exhausted)

You've gone mad since she appeared. You've sank into some sort of insatiable insanity. What connection is there between the two of you? Is there something you're not telling us?

And this new story of yours, it's a creepy mirror of some things happening now in real life, to you, to us. You're trying to tell me something without using the words.

Just what is Princess Willow? Why are you so hellbent on keeping her safe and near (especially after she ate you through)? Where did this obsession with her come from? Look at what you're doing to yourself. Don't give up your soul and body for a tramp like that. Even if she had the power to do anything... It's not worth it. Not worth your sacrifice.

I only kept her around because you pleaded. Now I regret that. How many more hallucinations do you need to have before you call it quits, or.... before you take your own life? It might not worry anyone else but it worries me, Glum-san. Something's not been right. And I'm getting closer. Just hope I don't drive you over the edge before I figure all this out.

I AM SO EXCITED FOR MAH BIRTHDAY.

I really wish that I would get another chance with you.
Although, I'm pretending I don't.
I really want to talk to you.

UGHGHUUGHHGHUGHGU

Oh hey, it's this again. Ugu~
T^T

Tomorrow is friday.

I pretend about a lot of things, but I wish I hadn't pretended on 11/27/12.

I wish I could just live here, in this vacuum of space known as my life. Nothing would change, but that would allow my mind to go free. Progress is my downfall, I swear.

I wish MSN worked on my phone.

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If anyone wants one of my instant messengers, just PM me or somethin'.

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I feel good about this, but I won't finish this. I've been quite disappointing lately...

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I miss you. I miss myself too.

I wish I was better at maintaining friendships. I feel like I get worse and worse every day.
sigh

I honestly don't even want to talk to you. Ever.

Just shut up. God, you're annoying!
You whine about everything, you then act that you're perfect, then say you're not, then say you know what's right and what ever I say is wrong. Sheesh, relax! You're like some kid that just says whatever to get a good image.

I bet you think to yourself "I sure showed him! I'm a good person", when you yourself make the same mistake and come up with random excuses to why you do them and why they can't be fixed. Then SOMETIMES, you say you don't have a mistake and that you never admitted to having a flaw!

You act good to show people you're a good person, but then become very selfish when no one but me is around. I love you, but you have to realize that you have mistakes. Just because you've been in Earth longer doesn't mean that you are at the top and that you can do what you please to those below you. If you keep it up, it'll bite you back. Actually, no, it won't bite you. It'll impact you back. You'll have regret. A lot of regret. And you won't have any supporters. Maybe just me, maybe not. I can stay with you for a while, but even I know that I can't keep supporting a personality without reasoning forever.

So stop it now before you mess up the future of others.