darkSpyro

... still, DON'T BLOW UP MY STABLES!! ;____________________________;

cynd: I read up to the sugar part.Well,that's me,always depress-eating.I know it's bad,but I just can't help myself...And I agree with Blue and what she said in post 911.Thatr's why I need people around.But,I HATE when people are around,but it helps,but I hate it...See,my brain just can't decide!
Ally: ...I have nothing to say.
cynd: Go to the rp.They must've post fested.
Ally: None of us have heard you say that for a long time...
cynd: YUP!That's cuz I just sucked it up and read it all.

Eating due to stress. That's what girls are for. *sigh* Then complaining about how they're not slim. Shut up about your weight and eat some celery or something, sheesh! >.>

I dont stress eat,I stop eating.
Come time for exams my friend (who calls me his sister and it is SO WEIRD!) can lift me up and carry me around like a plastic bag,its SO embarrassing!>.<'
But it kinda helps cause then if I fall over he catches me,or if I cant be stuffed jumping he just lifts me over the hole,still looks weird tho...

(creepy) Hmm ... I see ...

(It is cause hes my ex,then he started dating my bestie.After that he declared me as his 'non-blood related sister'.Its funny)
its kinda hard to keep it hidden from my mother though....
"Hey mum,I need you to make another hole in this belt,its too loose..."
"I just made a hole in that a month ago!"

(ohhh ... makes more sense now)
*sweat drop* uh oh ...
Well, I suppose I have a stress-related issue as well. I prefer not to talk about it, though.

(Yeah....but he p!$$es me off)

Yeah,I know....
and my signature and gb show how I feel on the isnide,behind this fake smile and positivity.
Sleeping & eating problems,breaking down in school atleast 2 times a day....
[idiot counsellors who do nothing at all!] and thats just the start....
hooray for the slowly deveoping problems,the school will soon tell my mother and Ill be sent to more councellors which i really dont need...
>.<'

Sending somebody to multiple counselors really doesn't help ... You'd think somebody would learn that we know of their trickery to get you to trust them. They have to earn our trust. Then we start to open up, even if only just. So long as they don't try to just bash through once we've cracked the barrier, everything would be okay.

Yeah,they think if they give us answers and solutions with out really knowing how deep it goes then it will solve our problems.
I just want to tell all of this to someone without answers and solutions,just get it off my chest...
They try and win their way to my trust with hot chocolates and getting me out of my least favourite classes but it does ot help.....it never helps.

The deception is all around us. It's rather sad to know that we know more than they do.

Indeed.
You know what?
I felt horrible this morning....but now after this,I feel so much better....

I didn't know that, actually.

I almost felt suicidal....
I guess talking to people who actually understand helps....
and not having people say "Im sick of you being sad,smile!BE HAPPY!"
How can I?How can I smile when it is a lie...

It's hard to lie to people about how you really feel. It chews you up sometimes. And it's too AWKWARD to talk about it to parents/guardians 'cause you don't want them to baby you (anymore). It's frustrating. There's really no one to turn to sometimes.

Indeed...I just discovered that all my teachers a physically worried about me,it seems they have been watching me closely and have actually noiced the changes.
That almost makes me want to laugh.

WELL NO FREAKIN' DUH YOU'VE BEEN UNDER SOME CHANGES!! >.< How much more stupid can they get!?

*eyeroll* i know right?

Dear lord, no wonder you're so stressed. Next thing you know, you'll have to be explaining to them how to correctly pronounce "book". >.>

Lol...
And on top of that I ahve to look after my MEGA DEPRESSED autistic friend.*cheers sarcastically)

SHEESH. D: Nothing gold can last for you! That is awful!

I know...
but its kinda nice to know that Im helping her along....
When she first moved into the class she would just stare at ehr book,not really doing anything.Now if she feels alright she will ask me to help her understand her work and try to do it...

That's great. Helping someone else along like that while you're suffering on the inside ... wow.

I cant help it....
Im just that way...Like I never gave into the gender steriotypes.....Come to think of it i've always had more friends who are guys....hmmm...

Never really had many friends ... Just my luck. But I don't LIKE to be around a lot of people. I'd rather be in my room, sleeping.

Thats like me....
But people want to be social and the flock to me...
What I find most annoying is that I have a fear of open spaces and large crowds....guess where they always wanna take me?
And one of my 'closest friends' told me yesterday,"You need to find a guy,then all your problems will go away".Hardly likely......then i was talking to my ex and he agreed with her,just what i need...

... No. Just no. That's waiting for heartbreak. Sorry if I seem all-around down, but seriously. Let's be realistic.

I know,but shes happy now....because of that reason....
I just dont see it happening for me,thats the way i am

cynd: ...Well,what now?
Ally: Bring randomness back,cynd!
cynd: How,with popcorn or something?
Skyburst: *mouth waters* That's not a bad idea,actually...
cynd: NOBODY ASKED YOU!
Skyburst: I was just stating my opinion!
cynd: Well go to a FAAAAAR state,like Hawaii,okay?
Ally: That made no sense.
cynd: I know.It was random.

Me: Uhhhhh....
Losi:. . .

cynd: That's it?
Allly: cynd!What the heck!?
cynd: IDK!I'm just asking!
Ally: Riiiiight.And I'm a bird.
cynd: You're part bird.
Ally: WHAAAAT!?WHERE DID THIS COME FROM!?
cynd: My imagination?
Ally: I hate you.
cynd: Another dollar for me!
Ally:

Losi: I'm gonna die! D-o's sending me out against Nina!
Me: Y'know, back there you said you could take care of both no prob.
Losi: I glimpsed at your plan.
Me: Oh. but still.

cynd: Losi,you're not gonna die!Well,if D-o let's it,you'll die,see the New Land,and come back to life looking all normal and still connected with Akulion.
Nina: And I get to kill him!
cynd: You're not gonna do it a second time,though!
Nina: *snorts* Yeah,right!You hate Losi,so-
cynd: NOT ANYMORE!
Nina: Dammit!

Me: brb.
Losi: DON"T LEAVE ME
Me: *glares*
Losi: Fine...

cynd: Bye!I had to brb as well,but I'm back now!
Ally: Good!Don't go anymore!
cynd: I'm going to have to go soon,though.I have dance.

Me: Okay.
Losi: . . .

cynd: Okay.
Ally: You repeated him.
cynd: I know!*eats some popcorn* Anyone want some?
Ally: That's it?
cynd: YUUUP!I got nuthin' after this.

Laurie: *Yawn*
Rio: Just woke up.....
Storm: .....
Liko: ZzZzZzZzZzZz

WTF, man!? X3 This is SO random.

... MY FRIEND STILL SAYS HI!!!!!! ... "Peanut butter and ponies ~!" she says.

Riiight....

Can she eat your arm, instead?

She wants your blood for charity~!


Fang: Greetings, B-TCHES! (her words, NOT MINE)

Losi: Fang, I'm tempted to punch you through a wall. *glaring*
Me: *yaaaawn*

Fang: Fat chance.

Losi: Wanna find out? Your a pretty big target for a fat chance.
Me: That was pretty bad...pun...
Losi: Who cares.
Me: You can't be picking fights with everyone...
Losi: So?
Me: *sigh* never mind.

Fang: *punches Losi through a nearby tree* Shut your mouth already.

Liko: *yaawn*
Laurie; Ignore him....he has a sleeping problem....

Fang: I can tell.
Curly: Liko is very spazzy.
Fang: I noticed. Stop pointing out the obvious already. '

Liko: Im part Darkrai....can you hold it against me?
Laurie; Yeah,you used to be part Skitty!THAT WAS FUNNy!!!!!X3
Storm; *eyeroll*

Fang: And Darkrai wears a skirt. *Chuckles*
Curly: lol ...

LikO; i know....cause I have a skirt....
Laurie: X3 omg lol!!!
Storm: Eve said you look cool tho
Liko; She was lying....
Rio: RAWR