darkSpyro

(As much as I loved that between us just now), it should never happen again.

Let's just forget it happened altogether. (It was wonderful.....)

(But it's what I've always wanted.) I just don't deserve it.

(I love you.) We can't be.

I get worse all the time, and I would ask one of you for help, but not many of you can help me, and those that can I will just be as mad to. I honestly think there is some kind of problem with me these days, and I wish I just had someone to help me. But I would act as crazy to them, because I know this is a problem but that's how I would try to fix my old problems, and I can't think of anything else. And I wish I could vent here, but I have a disorder, I will not be calmed unless I feel like I am making an impact by doing something... But that would not...

Not much as a Personal Thought, more as a Personal Announcement.


I'd like to thank everyone that took part in the "Thoughts" topic.
So thank you for participating on that and thank you for those that had to talk about me. It's nice to see what others think of me. Doesn't worry me as much.

Btw, I think this should be moved to Idle Chatter....It's not really a "nonsense" topic...

I'm not sure I should have sent that now. It's not that I don't trust you, because I do, but I'm not sure I want to talk about it anymore. I will wait and see how you respond.

Thank you for making me seriously cry. It doesn't happen often that I really do.

Enjoy all the money I sent you.

Thanks for proving that your love was fake. Because mine wasn't, you know.

But I'm glad I found you out before I got any deeper into this with you.

TBH I'm tired of playing your games and being your puppet. I've tried so hard to work things out. I'm guessing this is because I wouldn't do disgusting things with and for you while you were over there. Nice to know that I'd have to be a complete slut fr you to love me at all. Not that I ever expected you to come here anyway. How many excuses can one person really have? I wonder if your dad is really even dead. I even wonder if you even talk to mum. It's been about a year since I talked to her or more. This is probably all part of your sick and demented game.

And please stop complaining about how all your previous girlfriends before you married to me treated you like crap so you were hurt and blah blah. I don't really know if I can believe that anymore. How do I know that they weren't like me, sending you things when you're miles apart and waiting for you again, and you just using them up? Pestering them about naked videos and stuff? Who are you really? I don't know if you're the person I thought you were years ago. I know you've been so nasty to me before and I just stayed clinging to you, but this hurts so bad because I just wasted so much time waiting for you. I spent so much money on you I could have used for other things, just sending it to you because I LOVE YOU. I thought you needed it to get over here because you said your family ran out of money cause you had to help mum with stuff.

I wonder if mum was even talking to me that day you supposedly fainted while you're over there. Or if it was you trying to get a kick out of watching me worry to death. I already know Roro is just a fake account from you. I've found places where you're talking to other people not even acknowledging I exist...... What else could you be hiding?

All these lies and stuff. All me giving and giving....... For what? For this. You making excuses why you're not here now. Demanding gross things of me.

And despite all you've done to me, which I'm sure is not the case with you, I feel guilty even looking at any other guy I like. Like wanting to fall on a knife guilty, although they respect me so much more than you do. But I can't help it. That's love, or stupidity one.........

God. Somebody, anybody, please help me be done with you. I'm too loyal and I can't let go.

Are you there? I hope I didn't rub off as self-thinking to you. You haven't replied to me... I'm not sure what I conclude or hope for by that.

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If you think it's rude that I've stopped our conversation for now, I apologize, and even if not. My mood is just a bit down for chatting.

Quote: wakapro77

i think i love you... I'm sorry if that may frighten you.

omg who is it tell me tell me

You have to eat.... You'll die if you keep this up.

Meh, you annoy me.
That is a very weird looking drawing...
You remind me of someone who was here before who liked that character....
Don't like you toooooo much. :C

I love talking to you. I feel almost %100 better now. x3

~~**~~

DragonNest time?

Partying up for newbie dungeons because it makes our video recordings look all badbutt when we're taking out enemies in one blow. xD

Quote: Kurui

I love talking to you. I feel almost %100 better now. x3

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DragonNest time?

Partying up for newbie dungeons because it makes our video recordings look all badbutt when we're taking out enemies in one blow. xD

Just to make sure, you know I wasn't talking to you, right?

Quote: cowpowa23

Quote: Kurui

I love talking to you. I feel almost %100 better now. x3

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DragonNest time?

Partying up for newbie dungeons because it makes our video recordings look all badbutt when we're taking out enemies in one blow. xD

Just to make sure, you know I wasn't talking to you, right?

Wait huh wha? *lost Kurui is lost as usual*

Quote: Kurui

Quote: cowpowa23

Quote: Kurui

I love talking to you. I feel almost %100 better now. x3

~~**~~

DragonNest time?

Partying up for newbie dungeons because it makes our video recordings look all badbutt when we're taking out enemies in one blow. xD

Just to make sure, you know I wasn't talking to you, right?

Wait huh wha? *lost Kurui is lost as usual*

Oh, nevermind lol..
I thought your post was directed to my post...XD

Nope, most people know who I'm talking to though ;;. Usually either Dazzy, dfectroll, EMPEROR KAOS, or someone who stalks me on this forum but won't join.

But here is a post directed at you cowpowa!

*supermegahuggleglomps*

:3

Quote: TheFlyingSeal

Quote: wakapro77

i think i love you... I'm sorry if that may frighten you.

omg who is it tell me tell me

no hes gonna tell me 1st

Quote: Carmelita Fox

Quote: TheFlyingSeal

Quote: wakapro77

i think i love you... I'm sorry if that may frighten you.

omg who is it tell me tell me

no hes gonna tell me 1st

nu uh!

I know I shouldn't be happy about something as small as this, yet I am.

And the back of my head is screaming "Don't do it".

Quote: Nibelilt

I'm not sure I should have sent that now. It's not that I don't trust you, because I do, but I'm not sure I want to talk about it anymore. I will wait and see how you respond.

Quote: Nibelilt

Are you there? I hope I didn't rub off as self-thinking to you. You haven't replied to me... I'm not sure what I conclude or hope for by that.

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If you think it's rude that I've stopped our conversation for now, I apologize, and even if not. My mood is just a bit down for chatting.

I know this is about me. Don't worry; I feel none of those things. I will elaborate in a PM.

Why does it feel all of you are leaving me?

Am I really just...not good enough? Did I do something?

Now that I am officially single, I can no longer feel deathly guilty for liking you. C:

Quote: Kurui

Now that I am officially single, I can no longer feel deathly guilty for liking you. C:

...Wait, what? :O

Quote: DarkCynder10

Quote: Kurui

Now that I am officially single, I can no longer feel deathly guilty for liking you. C:

...Wait, what?

Finally grew courage enough to tell husbando it was over with. After foreveramountoftime of just silently suffering. xD

Oh for Gods sakes. Before the day of the show huh? You must really bloody hate me.

why are you so... moody against me? at first you are super dooper happy and then act like I don't matter at all

You don't know me and you're relying on me already?
I think we should do something about that before someone hurts you.

Sometimes, I feel like you forget I'm there, or that I'm just a pain in the ass.

You try to tell me otherwise, but your actions confuse me. Regardless, it doesn't change how I feel about you...but I just wish you could recognise that we make each other happy...I feel like we have a really special, unique dynamic...

...I just don't want another repeat. I don't want to feel like I'm not good enough for you. And I don't want to see you go off with another guy you spontaneously pick up because he's cute, only for him to use you for your beautiful body...you're to be protected and cherished, not used. I know the real you...and I love you...so please don't make another hasty move...

So, I say hi, you don't do anything but ignore all my words,
when everyone is against you, I was on your side, despite being against it fully.
you ignore it, saying everyone hates you.
but when I am on their side, I look the baddy.
I am sorry, but you just ruined the friendship for me, ignoring me is NOT what friends do.

~in the name of all that is sound, this music is beautiful~

Quote: Kurui

Quote: DarkCynder10

Quote: Kurui

Now that I am officially single, I can no longer feel deathly guilty for liking you. C:

...Wait, what?

Finally grew courage enough to tell husbando it was over with. After foreveramountoftime of just silently suffering. xD

Well, congratulations, I suppose.

I do not find your temper tantrums amusing in the slightest. You've lived for over fifty years. Isn't it time you finally learned to be tolerant and not throw a fit every time someone does something you don't like?

..I think I may have just lost a considerable amount of respect for you....
Nothing personal, just...I view you in a negative way.
Your a nice person, but you just annoy me....alot.

This isn't the time for that.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

Oh great, now you're going to start fighting again. I knew you would because you never said hello when you walked in. You two little children. I can't look forward to anything because of you. Now even if my parcel comes, I'm going to look less excited about it than I am, because I will be, because of you arguing all the time. It's killing me, can you see this? That's why I suffer there in the first place. You, can't you stop picking on her, and you, can't you learn when I keep trying to teach you about him?!?! I'm smarter than you think! I'm different! Stop ignoring me! Just listen for once, or I'll force you to stop forcing me back! I figured out what you yell over two years ago! I need to say it for you to take me seriously! But if I did you would either not believe me, or punish me for it! Can't you see you're murdering me? I don't want to live right now! You're doing this! You've been doing this for years! It's now that it's a problem because I have to put up with an insufferable hellhole on the other side of it! Don't say you aren't arguing, you ancient twats, YOU ARE! STOP TRYING TO LIE TO ME! TRY TO REALISE I'M SMARTER THAN YOU THINK, I'M BEGGING YOU. TAKE ME SERIOUSLY FOR ONCE! BECAUSE I AM SERIOUS! YOU DON'T EVEN ASK IF I'M ALRIGHT LATER!

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Can't look at me physically? Walking to the stereo? Telling me you don't care how smart I feel talking to you? Telling me to never yell at you again? I smell you trying to shut me up. Again. Keep failing, because I'm always going to fight this, YOU DON'T KNOW HOW THIS FEELS. Waiting on the other side isn't something that I prefer. And you're still trying to tease him.

WUMBOSPECULATOR

Nibelilt's parents.

lololol double post

Ahem, personal thoughts.

My life is a dam balance beam. I have all these great things like YouTube and an awesome school, but all my dad wants out of me is to be his Barbie doll in a Navy uniform. I hate I have to be related to that guy. He can't even get a job. Life completely wasted raging behind a desk. If that's what being in the military means, ending up like him, screw it. I couldn't care less about my future, since the only difference I can make in anything is making that thing proud.

Great, now you think you're safe, you're endangering all of us, but "Have fun" is all I can say at this point.

Was I right?

I will respond to you. I will, I promise. I just can't find the right words to explain whatever I need to. I haven't forgotten, or purposely ignored. I just need time.

Every. Day. Not one. Day. Do I not think about you.

It's alright, I do the same thing.

Become the best of friends. Move, never see them again. But it doesn't matter. Kids have no say and that will never change.

Why can't I tell you guys how I really am?
I want to show you my passions and loves, but my shy side always kick in, I hate it.
I want to see if you guys like the same things I do.

I want to feel happy right now, but you came out again.

Relation to you? Denied. I can't change my blood relation to you, to be sure, but in the end...blood is just blood. All other ties are broken.

Okay, what the hell is wrong with you? You are treating me like complete crap: I do all these things for you and yet you give me this attitude. I'm making sacrifice after sacrifice out of my personal comfort just to talk and be with you.

Every time you talk to me, it's like you're annoyed with my existence. It ****ing hurts me.

Calm down e_e
I get that preparing is a key value, but this whole thing is going in circles now. It's not worth talking about it anymore.

If there's anyone I don't want to see as a mod, it's you.