darkSpyro

Merry Early Christmas! Here, have your period! I hate today so much <\3 (Stupid Len )

I've lost all motivation for drawing, and this time I don't want it back.

While I feel a bit better now, I'm still not going to thoroughly enjoy this Christmas. I won't ever again. If we could have just one wish for Christmas, it would be for my dad to come back. It's hard to come to terms with the fact that I won't see him again within my lifetime. It would at least be better if I knew there was a chance. Merry Christmas dad, I still miss you as much as I did last year. I'll say I'm improving, but really I'm not. But I'll keep trying for you. I feel strange right now, because almost every song on the radio are ones you would play.

Why am I getting so many contradicting thoughts? I need to get my head straight. I want to be happy about a bunch of things I literally longed for, but now that's it here I can't seem to do it for some reason.

why can't i have my own privacy, hm?
why do you seem to expect me to trust you?
what makes you think that i care about you after all the times you've given me advice that ruined my life or all those times you've simply invaded my privacy, hm?

What's with all these people dying or getting sick this year? And I don't just mean celebrities, I mean family and friends' family. And it seems to be kicking up now that 2016 is almost over. In the sickness part, especially.

I usually adore Christmas, but this year I haven't really been feeling it. Despite all the accomplishments I made this year, this has probably been the most depressed I've been since I can remember. After years of stress, it's all just condensed into sadness.

I feel very useless. All these people I care about are having a horrible time, far worse than me, and there's nothing I can do about it. There's nothing I can do to alleviate their pain, and my attempts seem to be in vain.

And why can't I be grateful that I'm not getting hit as hard as everyone else? Just because I feel terrible doesn't mean it's really "terrible."

The fact that you openly admitted to me last night that the only reason you constantly shout at me and demand I do things is to appease that ****ing ***** you call your girlfriend.

You are a pathetic excuse of a god damned father. You wanted nothing to do with me and my brother when we were little, instead you treated us like we were vermin, locked us up in our rooms when you were home from work, and screamed at us if we so much as talked too loudly on the other side of the house.

You've made no effort to be a decent human being and you won't lift a ****ing finger to help your own family, not even your own kids. But you're perfectly content with sitting on your morally superior high horse and screaming down at everyone else because who gives a **** what that does to someone huh?

I'm not your ****ing slave. I don't need to be 'trained' to clean your house because you're too ****ing lazy to bother with it yourself. I don't care if you work or if you're old, it's part of your responsibility of being an adult which you are entirely inept at so far.

And I'm not going to be commanded into being respectful to that ***** you sleep with. She has done nothing but treat me like I'm worthless and deserve to die because I'm not the stellar poster child, and I already gave her a second chance and she continued to act that way. I'm not going to bow my head and let her do it in front of me because it'll make things easy for you.

I will refuse to speak to her, and if she gets an attitude because of it, then by all means I will throw down and make a scene at dinner. I don't give a **** if it's Christmas or not.

I'm tired of being treated as less than a person. I've given you all second chances by not picking up and running away with my mom years ago, and so far you've all done nothing but spit in my face for it. Push my buttons this time, and I will burn bridges. All of them. And your favored weapon of guilt-tripping me by saying I'll be leaving behind my grandmother and my cats won't ****ing work this time.

Merry ****ing Christmas.

hhhhhhh oh god this is arguably the worst my anxiety has ever been and i have no idea why
i just want everyone to leave me alone right now im so stressed and scared and i just want to scream so loud that everyone is afraid so i can be left alone

nothing even happened recently to set it off im just like this why am i like this

i wish it could stop but i dont have access rn to the only calming thing i have i hate this i hate today i hate anxiety i hate everything

First off, i did absolutely nothing wrong, I did exactly as you asked
Second off, respect my privacy please
Third, you've literally done nothing but **** on everything I've ever done my whole life, so even if you had had a valid reason to distrust me, i welcome it because maybe then you'll stop ****ting on everything i do.
Yet I'm the one that feels guilty here... how the hell did you raise me so poorly? I'm like a slave to you, aren't i? When it comes down to it, i have no rights, and you couldn't care less about me. You know what, maybe I will tell you literally everything ive ever had to hide from you my whole life, maybe then you'll understand at least something...

I'm afraid that you'll leave again... for good this time.

What's the point of having friends when you end up getting separated by something anyway? Why can't friendship be lifelong?

Right so I'm basically wreck now. I'm so sick of things being complete ****, but at the same time I'm getting way too happy over some things that I've been doing recently. There's so much contrast that I feel like I'm really delirious or something. I still have no idea what it could actually be. I've also really lost my patience with everyone. I'm kind of hating myself for it because it's like I don't care about anything they have to say, but I'm not trying to be like that at all. I just don't want to talk to anyone because I don't have anything to say anymore. Why is this happening?

okay

so no matter what you did in the last game, Clementine ends up alone. telltale, you literally wasted your time setting up several ****ing endings, because the outcome for both is the ****ing same

this is my problem, telltale cannot do story driven games like this right. like, they needed to have a different outcomeS to to the different endings.

on top of this Clementine is just really ****ing edgy now and it's kinda annoying. -.-