darkSpyro

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This ****ing hurts. Ouch.
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Sister you say that word a whole lot. And you call your little brother who actually has some issues and possible birth defects that word. You need to stop saying that word. It's more offensive than me calling you "Stupid". Like here's the level of rude words, Dumb < Stupid < than that r word.

Why do I keep ****ing this up? I'm sorry if I hurt you or made you feel bad.

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I really want to see if I can help you, but aaaauugh I'm too shy to message anyone. Why is it so hard to message someone I want to help? This explains my lack of friends.

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Shh.. you're giving me a headache. Whine somewhere else please.

this is surprisingly going smooth

It's great to be around people who actually have a sense of humor compatible with mine.

you feeling victimized lately will become second priority to me if remarks like that one continue

i wanna be cute today but i dont feel cute

I guess I won't love anyone~

See you later, love.

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i am so grateful to have parents that love me unconditionally and i know will accept me no matter what. we have our issues but i know how lucky i am.

"ohhh you gotta watch out there, that's a bad area. wanna know why? who mostly lives there? muslims. good thing they don't cause trouble when they're in their own ranks though."
- actual quote from my horrible, awful, terrible, racist grandmother just now. how am i related to this gross woman?

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Whoops, it's not our fault you cheated on him and now are miserable with your life having 5 more children from the guy you cheated with. So don't be a complete ****ing ***** and not tell us if you have our stuff you two timing ***** <3 Go rot in the deepest pit in hell

11 days ago would've been half a year I would've been with you... I thought we'd at least get that far...

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why am i all of a sudden so anxious and feeling like i'm going to explode at any moment

**** my family, you want to keep a secret from me, so be it. **** you guys so much, I hate you all.

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At this point you're really scaring me and making me anxious. If you're uncomfortable or angry or just anxious and don't want talk why don't you just say so? Because you think it'll make me feel bad? Sure it might hurt a little but it hurts a lot more now and leaves me wondering if it's something I did, if you're angry with me, if you're just anxious or overwhelmed, or what.

This is practically identical to what happened in February and I was hoping something like that would never happen again. This lack of communication and fear of things made me anxious to talk to you for a while and I had gotten over that this past week.

i wanna look cute but on the other hand i dont

Now I'm so worried and lost that I can't even think straight. Even my two methods of maintaining my sanity are not working...what am I supposed to do? I can't distract myself from this now...I can't stop worrying. I can't develop any games, I can't write, even music is only depressing me more. What do you want from me?

gosh golly power trips sure are fun

I nearly lost my temper today.
I kept it together though so yeah just bolted out of class to get out of their I just felt so frustrated with the whole world.
I guess I feel things dismantling in my life with school having 10 weeks now left and everyone getting on my nerves.
And well yeah I can't afford to get anything I want lately been saving up money for awhile I really want a new hoodie and shirt also a pair of shoes and get my ears pierced.(and get red streaks in my hair)
I haven't ask for anything all year and well I really want this before the school ends cuz for along while I've been waiting still I was 18 so I wanted to know what I wanted.
I feel like it's about time to reveal my true self.
And other stuff going on in my life well that's well sad and depressing.

Other than that well I wish something awesome and good could happen for me really really soon.

exceptionally bitter at everything

attention seeking? i deserve acknowledgement beyond everything i do being ignored.

I swear my house is possessed.

Ok You thought I like you two in that way guess what I don't what a shocker.
And you though me into a argument trying to see who I like haha my bestie never would tell.
what a shocker you thought I liked you guys Bloody hell Friend ways were mates other than that nah nah nah

Yep… I'm pretty sure I'll be penalized my whole life because of a five-or-six-year-old accident.

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Son of a Glitch.. I seriously cannot find it anymore...... I seriously dislike it, when things I worked on for so hard on, just suddenly disappear... Siiiigh... As usual it had to be such a moment for it to happen... Oh well...

Thank whoever is up there for nudging me out of bed before I overslept TOO far. I don't want to be late to my TRAINING, more or less my first full time week.

Usual fights are becoming boring

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If I am not online tomorrow it is very possible something got me at 3:00AM because those images on the internet said so... Wish me luck.

OMG, I cannot believe you actually did that ! LOOL. Wow.. Man, that's making me laugh seriously .. just.. wow.

Painful.

****ING REALLY?! SO EVEN THOUGH IN NEW YORK IT WAS CONSIDERED AN A AND WENT ON ALL MY TRANSCRIPTS, YOU ****ING THINK "OH, SINCE IT IS TECHNICALLY A B GRADE HERE, LET'S JUST CHANGE THAT GRADE TO A B SO HIS GPS GOES DOWN." NO, **** THAT! I ****ING EARNED THAT A IN NEW YORK FAIR AND SQUARE, THERE IS NO ****ING REASON TO ADJUST THAT GRADE TO YOUR OWN ****ING FLAWED GRADING SYSTEM!

OMFG I HATE THIS ****ING SCHOOL

eeehmmm....... Why did I even say that....... I..... Sigh..... It's getting a little much for me as well.

I'm so sick of your bull**** Jamia. We all are. I don't care if you're technically at one stand, you are in Carts and your stand is a part of it. The other stands that run themselves yet are owned by Carts get how it works and help out. Don't sit there and tell me you can't cause you're assigned to that one stand. I'm your supervisor and I asked you to do something, get the **** off your high horse and help us get what we need done.

I swear you're making me want to rip your eyes out and just magically decrease you into a midget and stamp all over you. I'm sick of your misandry, who should, constant non-equally way of treating people. My words are out of anger and stress. All you see is black and white, no grey, no in-between. I don't even know how you managed to get past this stage in life. You pissed me off in the morning and then again, you nearly gave me an anxiety attack. All you care about is getting your own way, and your way only. I know you don't give a **** about anything else. I'm sick of those comments, the ones that make me want to puke. You don't shut up, you yap and whine all day complaining how annoyed you are. When I'm silently hurting inside, you don't realize that people that you dislike also have feelings. All you think about is revenge, and the urge to getting someone back. On the defence wagon you go, you interrupt every tiny chance I have to speak. Your so such petty comments, and caring about things more than my health and safety is very non-empathic and narcissistic. Then again, you were the one who created my insecurities.