darkSpyro

Or at least, I hope it is.

hahaha the weather is reflecting my mood
so much rain... hopefully a bolt of lightning will strike him in his stupid face and he'll die and we'll be together again

thats okay
phase me out
i understand

I kinda want someone to talk to about what I'm going through, but I think I should mostly keep it to myself. It'll turn out better in the long run.

It's not right how you treat him and don't ****ing tell me I can't talk to him. **** you and your mother****ing racist ass. I don't give a **** he's black and I don't give a **** he's gay. You ****ing dared tell me to stay away from him for those reasons? I wanna ***** slap you so hard your goddamn neck will hurt for a damn week. I don't judge and I don't hate. I'll tell you again that I trust him more then I'll ever trust you. **** you, you really do piss me off.

I'm finally at Tower, the place I'd wanted to be since day 1, and now that I'm here it really just isn't a happy place. I'm supposed to be the Supervisor running the stand, yet it feels like I'm running it with that constant thought of what should I do to keep you from getting pissed at me, what you want me to do, and that it always ends up wrong anyway. Hell, you're supposed to be my Lead, the one under me, yet I'm the one taking orders from you and fearing you punching me in the face as you keep threatening. Sure these threats may be mostly joke, but it still leaves me walking on eggshells.

Since the beginning, I've felt somewhat resented and unwanted there. You even told me after a few days that this other guy was supposed to become a Lead and his promotion went down the drain because I got moved there. Sure, you worded it in a way that makes it seem like you aren't blaming me, but it makes me feel guilty every time his name is mentioned or I see his face; a bit worse since he had to quit because of school a couple days ago.

They warned you to be careful as they thought you make me cry, not sure if expecting me to be a whimp, you to be tough, or both, but that was a tad annoying to learn. While I doubt I actually would if you *****ed me out, I almost feel like doing so today just because of how sick I am of feeling pushed around by you. Brandon may have put up with it and let you name him your *****, but I'm not like that. I'm not one to just be pushed around like that and be ok with it. If anything, if you did try to yell at me, I rather think I'd yell back.

This stand doesn't really feel like a home, I may know what I'm doing there and have my routine, but it feels like I'm just going through the motions as I slowly count down the days until I have to leave for Florida. I thought I'd be unhappy about my impending departure and cherish my last days, but instead it seems I'm eager for it, if anything just to leave the stand...

It makes it worse that we seem to get along as friends, but just can't work together quite right, leaving me with making this uneasy feeling that just builds up day after day in a mix of emotions in how I feel about you.

there goes my 3 month streak without self harming
im sorry, i just couldnt take it anymore...

my mic is on, im talking, im desperately trying to talk to you and i desperately want to have a friend right now, so why are you ignoring me?
everyone leaves me eventually, even the ones i thought would never leave me for the world... i guess i should just get with the times and realize that im replaceable by everyone...

you're ****ing stupid lmao. you're banned on a forum. a ****ing forum. deal with it you stupid child. cops won't do **** you dumbass.

maybe i just need some time to think for myself too...

So I'm ghetto now because I have to color in my eyebrows? Well sorry for being so "weird."

great...
now even you're doubting me...
now that's two of the people that i trusted most down, all i have to do is get my family to hate me more than they already do and ill be perfectly alone again. yipee.

im so sick of my own life, why do i even bother anymore

fIRST OF ALL HOW DARE YOU
WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO MY HEART WTF