darkSpyro

Yay, mood drop.
Thanks for getting my hopes up and then cutting them down.
"You don't understand the concept of money. You don't know how hard it is to get it."
excuse u i played monopoly today i know how 2 handle money
Aside from that, just because you think I'm immature, you think I don't have a ****ing clue how the ****ing world works. Granted, I do act immature, yes, but I'm not a ****ing clueless 5 year old. I know the concept of money and I know how hard it is to get/earn.
"You don't need to go downtown to apply for a job with someone there to hold your hand."
OH MY GOD. Jeezus christ, my friend suggested we go for a walk downtown and go apply for jobs at stores we went to. It's better than going into town alone. We wouldn't go into a shop together, we'd just go in by ourselves, ask, give in our CV, and go to the next job.
If you haven't noticed, it's ****ing hard for me to go into a store and ask a person I don't know for a job. Yes, this is a small town, but I don't know everyone. And with this slight anxiety I seem to have, it's hard for me to not become nervous and freak out and stutter when speaking. You don't know I have slight anxiety, and there's no point telling you because you would just tell me I'm wrong and that I'm just making an excuse.
"I don't see the point of going to another country to see a pen-friend."
That's because you've never had online friends from overseas who have been there for you more than your real life friends have! You don't understand because the internet didn't exist back when you were a kid, and it might have existed when you were my age, but I don't think you used it.
Mum wants to go, I want to go, our last holiday was terrible because it was rainy everyday except for about two days. And you know why I stayed in my room in that house the whole time? Because I was bored. Because I was alone and had no one to hang out with. If I went downstairs all I would able to do would be to watch boring television with you and mum.
We've never been to this place I want to go to. We went to the same region/state, twice. Mum and I both wanted to go to someplace else, but we went to the same place because you wanted to go to some freaking island with crystal clear waters. And we both got sick from other people on that tour.

I understand the things you've told me which you think I don't understand.
I know I've wasted months by doing nothing, but I will be looking for a job soon.
I've been waiting two whole years to go over and meet my online friends.
Please...I'm begging you...can we go?