darkSpyro

That wasn’t that bad, but I really wish I had gotten her number then.

I want to scream forever. Everything is falling apart. I feel like a total failure and everyone I know just seems to be distancing themselves from me. I feel alone...

Put yourself in my place for just one day
Watch all the colors in your spectrum fade grey
More aware than ever that I might never be calm again
And it shakes every ****ing bone
Try to do the right thing on my own
So I let the ink tell you how I come to grips
With all of this

I'm getting too old for this

i can't be myself on here without the fear of starting something w/ you.

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@at girls who complain that its cold when they're only wearing a crop top and yoga pants

I'm getting kinda tired of this now, maybe I need a break. I'm not sure what I can do though. Procrastinate further? I feel so... pathetic right now. Useless and demotivated. Maybe it's the dreams. Either way, it looks like I can't do much at all right now. I'm useless. Just useless.

moments of myself being liked as a human being by other human beings are so few and far between i feel as if i must relish in every minor victory. to keep my status and experience alive. so i can remind myself that no matter how ****ed things get, there was at least once a point where people did like me. where people did take my side and fight with me instead of against me.

Looks like I've found another goal, or rather, another possibility. I'd like to see if I'm right on this. If I am, I've got a whole lot of untapped potential on my hands.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA

FOOOOOOOOO-

oh, wait, it's these feelings again

Sometimes I just want someone to grab me by my shoulders and shake some sense into me and scream in my face that it’s time to let go of the past and move forward...

I hate how I treat you. Of all the kindness and support you throw my way, I shouldn’t be dragging you through my **** this much. I have very precious time to speak to you and I can’t be constantly wasting it on mindless venting and lashing out

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me: (works really hard on a crayon drawing that i made to decorate the restaurant for halloween with) this actually looks really good!! im so happy about my dragon!!
coworker: (throws it away)
me: oh

I wonder if animation would be a good career path for me instead of games? Well, there's also music, but between games, music, and animation, I think either could work. So that's three possibilities right now... I think. Still don't know if animation is a good idea but it seems interesting. Maybe it could work.

32 days

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i don't care what anyone thinks. at the end of the day, i won. i came out on top, and i will make sure nobody forgets that i am the winner. i was the one who solved problems. i was the one they agreed with.


with so many people ****ting on me nowadays it's important to hold onto the moments where you win :^)

Quote: ZapNorris

i don't care what anyone thinks. at the end of the day, i won. i came out on top, and i will make sure nobody forgets that i am the winner. i was the one who solved problems. i was the one they agreed with.


with so many people ****ting on me nowadays it's important to hold onto the moments where you win :^)

Kowalski, analysis

Quote: Metallo

Quote: ZapNorris

i don't care what anyone thinks. at the end of the day, i won. i came out on top, and i will make sure nobody forgets that i am the winner. i was the one who solved problems. i was the one they agreed with.


with so many people ****ting on me nowadays it's important to hold onto the moments where you win :^)

Kowalski, analysis

my analysis: if you continue this, you’re well on your way to gay baby jail

31 days

Stop.

when are people going to realize that im a bad person and that i deserve everything that’s coming to me

do i stay at the job i hate to work up to supervisor and eventually manager so i can sort the ****hole out?? or do i get a new job that pays better and is less ****??? i just have so many ideas on how to sort the shop out and get more customers but i doubt the manager will listen to me. i'm just a sales assistant and i started in this shop 4 days ago and even though i transferred from the same company from a different town and have loads of experience, i'm still just "training"

i wish i didnt have to leave my old job, it was so cool

i'm so sad someone hug me

Quote: Bolt

big hug for jagged ;;
i really hope you'll be okay. why the **** are you in training though ...
and if you have the chance id say try and look for a new job because it sounds like this shop deserves all the crap it gets if no one is going to listen to you and puts you back in training??? wtf

i genuinely like the company, i wanna stay on and keep the shop from getting closed down but idkkk ((

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Rise up this mornin',
Smile with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou: ")

Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin': "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right! "

well this is a goddamn ***** of an unsatisfactory situation

I'm glad you took a chance on me.

Why haven’t I killed myself yet?

i'm ready to die alone

You need help.

I wonder if the world would be a happier place when I'm gone? Ah well, I don't need to worry about that for another 24 days at least. Or something like that... it's the 27th?

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So you remembered me. But too little too late. It doesn't matter. I really loved what I did there but if I really was that great to you things would be different now, right? Just let me vanish and be forgotten. It is not like I am going to make a difference at all. Goodbye.

Mental health issues are stinky, but man do I need to find a better air freshener

(This analogy is ****ing terrible holy ****)

I'm completely closing off. No one can leave me if I let no one in. Discord down dS is next

tfw you spent an entire week writing a five page essay that took a lot of time and energy out of you, and now you have to revise it before thursday

sometimes youre really the most insufferable person on the planet
you cant let me have a single damn thing, can you?

why did i make it worse. now i'll never get anyone back. maybe i should die

i bet no one even noticed/cared

id rather spend all day working on hw than watch yt videos all day...again...

25 days

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^ you said it gurl