darkSpyro

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i came back to the site and talked about how i wanted to come back to the roleplay i left, but now i'm not feeling it again, i feel bad about it, but to be fair the person running it isnt even around and hasnt been for like two months. Iunno i guess it's hard with my adhd and depression, i get in a mood and then fall out of it. Maybe it'll return but i dunno, i just dont wanna upset the people who were waiting on me

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I'm excruciatingly ugly. I know how to tell a good looking person from an ugly person, and I know I'm ugly. But it's not fair cuz my brother is attractive so what the ****.

also i can tell a good actor from a bad actor and im not a good actor

so do i just give up on my dream and hide my face?

Quote: Lunarz

I'm excruciatingly ugly. I know how to tell a good looking person from an ugly person, and I know I'm ugly. But it's not fair cuz my brother is attractive so what the ****.

also i can tell a good actor from a bad actor and im not a good actor

so do i just give up on my dream and hide my face?

It's not about the goods. It's about the way you present them.

le epic angst xd

Thanks to penguinz0 I can't see the demons in Agony as anything else but Venus flytraps with tits.

Thank you, Mr. Locksmith who came to my house to fix my lock, your words really mean a lot to me. I feel much more confident in myself now.

my sleep schedule ****ing sucks lol

Quote: Lunarz

I'm excruciatingly ugly. I know how to tell a good looking person from an ugly person, and I know I'm ugly. But it's not fair cuz my brother is attractive so what the ****.

also i can tell a good actor from a bad actor and im not a good actor

so do i just give up on my dream and hide my face?

what the **** is wrong with you dude you're really attractive.

Quote: Badwolfmichael

Quote: Lunarz

I'm excruciatingly ugly. I know how to tell a good looking person from an ugly person, and I know I'm ugly. But it's not fair cuz my brother is attractive so what the ****.

also i can tell a good actor from a bad actor and im not a good actor

so do i just give up on my dream and hide my face?

what the **** is wrong with you dude you're really attractive.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^yes omg

I was wrong. I overreacted and now I am only let to deal with the consequences. My behaviour was out of line and I should have known better at that moment. But I didn’t… sometimes I just hate the whole thing since it is textbook miscommunication on both parties which are you and I, right? But I am sorry for not telling you how I feel after the interaction and I think it is too late now.

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I always find it funny when people try to reach out to me. I am not interesting person and my personal world of mind is not something to connect with. Of course in professional situations I forget my own personal views and just do what I have learned or what I have been told to do. I am not pleasant company for the long run, I guarantee that… And I am a person without empathy so there is that aspect as well.

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I have grown more angered with how seriously people take internet year by year. It is just electronic data in man-made structure. It is not real life, it is not DNA, it is not something tangible and real which actually has superb concrete meaning over individual’s life in emotional basis. Of course our economical statuses are quite tied to those electronical information networks but as a replacement for a social human interaction, internet is just a tip of the iceberg and not the main goal. Data is just data, it is not food, water or shelter.

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Those were my personal thoughts of the day… Carry on being personal, people…

my christmas dress makes me feel like an evil enchantress

bow before me, peasants

So you really expect me to go get your dog and place him on your bed at 1 am while this dog makes a **** ton of noise when I go and get him and I could wake more people than needed. Yeah go **** yourself sister. I've been getting almost every day, you can get off your ass and get him. Speaking of people that need to get off their ass instead of have others do their dirty work. Dad go **** yourself you lazy slop of ****. Me and mom both know you come and get me whenever mom needs help with something and ***** about how some people don't help often enough. **** you and your hypocrisy, actually put in a reason to keep you around. Because chances you're not going to get a job because of the lack GED/High School Diploma. At least Mom has one and nearly had herself in cripple risk situations before, also your son and daughter have one of those too. Especially since it's pretty much required to get one these days. So explain to me how the **** are you gonna get job now that your cult overlord will be in power soon.

these past two days have felt like two weeks

I am feeling so goddamn lonely lately.

my life

"I'm gonna have a productive day today"
lol noep

You know, I'm getting tired of you saying "I'm leaving" and not doing it. Don't say you're going to do it and not do it. Just do it.

Feeling extremely depressed and very alienated from everyone.

The people I talk to seem to get irritated at me within two seconds of me trying to make conversation, and either ignore me entirely or make snappy replies.

These past few days have been hell without you and I'm worried you're enjoying not talking to me. Maybe I should just disappear forever

do you actually even miss me

No one ever move to North Dakota. It's terrible.

No, school board, that's ****ing stupid. To make up for 2 missed hours becasue of WEATHER THIS SCHOOL DIDN'T PLAN FOR BECAUSE IT'S ****ING STUPID IT'S ****ING NORTH DAKOTA OF COURSE IT'LL ****IN SNOW, we have to make up those 2 hours wednesday and thursday....by ****ing staying in school an extra hour each. Um, ****in hello people have work?! At 4 or even 3:30!? So no, we can't stay in school till 3:50 because of your terrible decisions.

tfw u have to take an extra class just to know how to properly fill out a tax, but you're expected to know calculus by the time you reach college.

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Conversation that went into designing the lessons in my school:

"Hey Bob, I have a great idea! How about we make the lessons only have 3 questions, so that if they get even one question wrong, they don't pass that lesson!"

"Great idea Joe! And how about we then make 2 of those questions things that weren't mentioned in the lesson or in the book!"

"Great! Let's make sure everyone has to just wildly guess to, because we'll have it contradict every other sentence."

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how tf do i do this

Quote: Crystal Dragon

Feeling extremely depressed and very alienated from everyone.

The people I talk to seem to get irritated at me within two seconds of me trying to make conversation, and either ignore me entirely or make snappy replies.

I have no hard feelings towards you regarding the necro'ing incident. Truthfully, I thought it was entertaining.

Although you're probably just talking about real life circumstances, I though I would put that out there. You can talk to me whenever if you'd like, if you need the company.

Quote: Waaksian

Quote: Crystal Dragon

Feeling extremely depressed and very alienated from everyone.

The people I talk to seem to get irritated at me within two seconds of me trying to make conversation, and either ignore me entirely or make snappy replies.

I have no hard feelings towards you regarding the necro'ing incident. Truthfully, I thought it was entertaining.

Although you're probably just talking about real life circumstances, I though I would put that out there. You can talk to me whenever if you'd like, if you need the company.

Oh no, I'm not at all upset over the necromancy. That was my own boredom and morbid curiosity at play and I totes deserved to get smacked with the suspension hammer. My goal was to get suspended anyhow so I can say YEP I'VE DONE THE THING.

It is because of a combination of unrelated things involving others, and also my own self doubt eating away at me but I will trudge on as I always have. Thank you though, for your kind words.

Mrr...

Quote: Crystal Dragon

Quote: Waaksian

Quote: Crystal Dragon

Feeling extremely depressed and very alienated from everyone.

The people I talk to seem to get irritated at me within two seconds of me trying to make conversation, and either ignore me entirely or make snappy replies.

I have no hard feelings towards you regarding the necro'ing incident. Truthfully, I thought it was entertaining.

Although you're probably just talking about real life circumstances, I though I would put that out there. You can talk to me whenever if you'd like, if you need the company.

Oh no, I'm not at all upset over the necromancy. That was my own boredom and morbid curiosity at play and I totes deserved to get smacked with the suspension hammer. My goal was to get suspended anyhow so I can say YEP I'VE DONE THE THING.

It is because of a combination of unrelated things involving others, and also my own self doubt eating away at me but I will trudge on as I always have. Thank you though, for your kind words.

I figured that was the case, since you had said it yourself before. I just get really paranoid that I might have offended someone, so I make sure anyone I talked to doesn't feel put off by me, even when logically I know they aren't. But you're welcome.

This is like the FIRST ****ING TIME I'VE BEEN ANGRY IN LIKE TWO MONTHS.
...Sad thing is, I kind of miss the familiarity of the feeling..............

Out of school until January

Quote: willspyro

Out of school until January

wtf my break starts the 23rd

Quote: Mesuxelf

Quote: willspyro

Out of school until January

wtf my break starts the 23rd

My last day before winter break is the 16th.

Today I helped a man from Israel who didn't speak English well out in my store with shopping for what he needed. Apparently the guy has been turned down at countless stores here in the US because they "couldn't understand him". I spent a good half an hour with him and we ended up getting everything he needed. He was then so blown away by my courtesy that he escorted me to my manager and told him about the whole experience and that gave me a nice rep boost.

...Things like what happened today make me feel like I'm atop the world.

The last two days have been good, I got a cool new haircut which has helped boost my confidence again, I found out that I *might* be getting an award at my graduation tomorrow (my tutor wanted it to be a surprise but she knew about my social anxiety and it made me so happy that she remembered and checked that I would be okay with going up in front of everyone), and today I got to spend the day painting and talking to someone about art who helped once again boost my confidence because they said that they really thought I could start a webcomic with how my style is now (even though I still don't feel like my style is perfect, it makes me feel glad to hear that people think its good enough).

I really hope this good keeps going to end this year off nicely, and I hope it means next year is going to be good too.

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Ahaha, I love you guys so much. It makes me so happy you two get along and that all this cute stuff is happening. You're both lovely, and you both make me smile so much! I hope we can all talk again like that day, cause it was so much fun.

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I've been talking so much today, its so weird. I'm not used to babbling so much anymore, I kinda shut myself down when I get all excited and babbly. I was even confident enough to not care if anyone walked in on me singing/attempting to rap. Maybe this is what its like to start getting back to the way I used to be. Maybe this means I'm getting closer to not hating myself as much.

Quote: mega spyro

Quote: Mesuxelf

Quote: willspyro

Out of school until January

wtf my break starts the 23rd

MY last day before winter break is the 16th.

Dude, school only comes back for me in February.

pretty much my life

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I'm feeling kind of nice, actually...

I got best female student of the year. Yay. Im so tired

d o h

Boys are trash, don't talk to boys

See these things are the reasons for us not having nice things. I am struggling with this right now. Should I not care or should I just put you in your place and make you humble? For the time being I choose to not care but if this kind of irrational, short-sighted nonsense continues to happen, I might take some drastic measures to fix the problem.

That was my personal thought of the day. Carry on being personal, people…

uhm okay..


"This isn't an essay you can finish in one night."

Well, that trip down memory lane hurt.

Dear lady at Sunglasses Hut,
I'm sorry I lied to you about being interested in those $400 sunglasses that I knew I wasn't going to buy. I walked in to the wrong store and you were very aggressive with your sales pitch but very nice and I got nervous and ended up wasting about 20-30 minutes of both mine and your time because I was too much of a baby to admit that I wasn't actually interested in overpriced sunglasses. I didn't really care about round glasses being in style nearly as much as I told you I did. Also that blue and purple pair that you said was your favorite was disgusting.

i got all the achievements in psychonauts!!!!