darkSpyro

I am very scared for my best friend...She said she's going to try a demon game of hide and seek....I hope she'll be okay....

This is the game, by the way... http://hideandgokill.wikia.com...d_Go_Seek_Alone It is 100% real, people have been really hurt by this....I really hope she'll be okay....

I wish I didn't have to run into ***** like that. I mean, I know it's the internet, but I just want to avoid it. The fact that it appeared in my subscriptions doesn't help at all.

im a toxic friend and all i ever do is put people in a bad mood : ^ )
i should just stop trying and just give up on existing already

Now I just made my Aunt freak out... I just want to do nothing and cry in a corner all night... Wahh!

Edit: You were purposely doing all those things, weren't you? You made it sound like you have the best mother in the world, while I barely see mine anymore. Thank you for making my life more miserable, love you too. Oh, and that stupid cat meow was not cute at all. Not in the slightest!

holy **** this crush is growing a lot and youre so pretty and we work well together and youre so nice and during that whole thing you pretty much onlyu wanted to talk to me and be on my team and it was great and adorable and you make everything light up just by walking in the room and just

wow

but at the same time youre probably super straight and idk how that friend group will treat me if i ever come out
i feel like we'd be so perfect for each other but theres so many variables i cant foresee and its killing me inside

tfw someone is better at a video game then you so you feel like a disappointment for the rest of the night and want to die : ^ )

wow okay i just constantly **** up

I know that I'm no good, and I know Im hurting you all. I will vanish, its whats good. Right..?

Welp, my life has been being cruddy. I wish I Can just have a break from drama.... Looking at you, bugs, and looking at you, cousin\aunt!

I'm very sorry for my existence, and my bruises are definitely not enough of a punishment. I will carve it into my skin to remind myself, I scar easily and I will tear it open again and again. I am a worthless waste of space, I will remember this, and I will punish myself accordingly for stepping out of my place, which is locked away where no one can see me. I do hope that I spill enough blood to pay.

dont act so put out about me not doing this out of the goodness of my heart
i took my job for the scholarship money
if youre gonna call me and tell me that you want me to give an impromptu orientation to a group of your colleague's kids on one of the last free days i have before the semester starts, i kinda feel entitled to be paid 20 bucks for the few hours i have to spend

We had another huge argument with the neighbors. They are horrible and sick, constantly trying to get at us. The things they say to us is just... I'm so stressed. This is why we're trying to move out, but we still can't find anywhere to go. I feels horrible, it's like we're trapped and there's no escape, unless we want to be homeless. The police haven't done anything about it, because they don't realize how bad this situation really is. Like will they stop taunting my mom? It's not her fault, if anything it's because of all the ***** she has to put up with. It's so stressing when you feel useless and like you can't do anything about it.

>gets gold medals for 32 kills, 9,482 damage, 19 objective kills, and 3:07 objective time
>gets quintuple kill early in game
>gets career bests for every ****ing category as d.va

>loses game
>reaper gets double kill potg
>doesnt get card

guess ill just go **** myself then

i personally do not agree with divided betta setups. they are solitary and territorial fish that shouldn't be kept with other bettas long-term. even if they can't see each other through the divider they are well aware that they are in the presence of another betta. they can tell. i see 10 gallons that are divided into three sections and i just don't like it. 10 gallons are small enough and i personally wouldn't give a betta less than 10 gallons of space. in 10's that are divided in 3 each betta gets 3 gallons of space and even less with decorations. three fish is also so much more stressful than just two anyway. there is also the risk of one of them slipping through the divider and shredding the other fish apart. it's so risky.

but i DEFINITELY DO NOT LIKE IT WHEN PEOPLE PUT A MALE AND FEMALE IN A DIVIDED SETUP. it is such a bad idea i don't know why people consider it. the hormones leeching off of them will make the male flip out and make the female eggy which CAN kill her. i've heard a lot that bettas in divided setups generally live shorter lives and it's no surprise. i kind of imagine it to be like constantly being stuck in a house with really annoying people with walls so thin you can see and hear them clearly and it never ends.

i considered dividing judas's tank at one point but i never want to put him through that. i don't want him constantly stressed. judas isn't particularly aggressive, he acts like it sometimes, but he's really mellow in general. i really don't know how he'd react to another betta in his presence but i'm not even gonna try that. the horror stories i've heard are awful and i want judas to live his life as long as he can stress-free.

Okay, can we talk about anything without you derailing the conversation and turning it into a conversation about yourself? Can I please just talk about something EXTREMELY IMPORTANT like my college options to you without you going off onto a tangent (in the middle of what I'm saying) about yourself, your Skyrim or Oblivion game, and stories from your past that I've heard a few times before? You wonder why I don't talk to you about anything important, really... It's because of that. I'm sorry and I don't want to make it seem like I don't care about your past and how ****ty your family was to you, but you talk about it at the wrong time. We were not discussing your childhood newspaper route and the dogs that followed you on it, we were talking about me possibly taking college entirely online. Again I'm sorry, but I'm trying to make a BIG decision and you're not helping me at all!

You do it EVERY TIME I talk to you about ANYTHING! I'm not exaggerating. Every time, you find some way to turn whatever I'm saying into a story from your past (that I almost always have already heard). A very long story I might add, because you sure are meticulous. You do it when I'm trying to talk to you about important things, you do it when I'm telling you anything about myself, you do it when I'm angry at my brother for whatever bull**** he's getting away with this time (and you do that in a very "my siblings were worse to me so shut the **** up and get over it" way), you do it all the time and almost never when it's relevant or appropriate.

Again, it's not that I don't care... I don't want to be disrespectful and I'm sure that you don't mean to blow off what I'm saying like that... But I'm trying to get your input on a huge milestone in my life. It's supposed to be a happy time for me, and I was happy because I found an option that I think would really work for me and I was excited to see what you thought of it... But then you somehow turned the conversation into a long, depressing conversation about your favorite dogs' deaths and an asshole sheriff you used to live by using stray dogs as target practice... And then I tried again a little later and you weren't listening; you were paying attention to your bratty cat who was on your legs instead of your senior daughter trying to discuss an important part of her future with you...

I'll just talk to Dad about it. He stays on topic and gives me actual input. He doesn't use me as a therapist. He always makes me feel proud of myself. I'm not trying to be spiteful to you, but I can't really talk to you about anything. I don't want to stop you in the middle of what you're saying because that's rude, but it's also rude of you to ignore me for your cat and for your depressing childhood memories. And I feel like you tend to care more about my brother and his struggles rather than mine sometimes so that doesn't help our relationship. Sigh.

Don't get me wrong. You're not a bad mother at all. ****, you do so much for us (especially him) that you're pretty much too good. That's what I'm baffled that we don't have a better relationship. Part of it is because I can't really talk to you. :/