darkSpyro

that dream was really nice
too bad it was just a dream...

I miss you. I'm still in love with you. Even after 4 years, I Love You.

"Pokemon Go is a success, now how can we make it look racist. sexist and homophobic?"-Gaming journalism

OH NO, your ex-boyfriend told you that some random girl called you a "****ing *****" for some reason that even YOU don't know??? and you're pissed about a small little insignificant thing like that???? WOW, let me just STOP MY ENTIRE WORLD to hear you complain, yet AGAIN, about how "****ing done you are with people" over some stupid ****ing bull**** like a random person who doesn't even know you calling you a bad name for no apparent reason whatsoever! (and then, yeah, spend more time complaining about it on a Spyro forum... i'm venting, shut up)

and then let me spend time typing out an encouraging, polite message about not taking that random person's insult to heart because she doesn't even know you (what, do you think that me unprovokedly calling a random person on the street an asshole, for example, means that they are???? no, not at all, so why be bothered by this?) only to get an "Ik" in response to my whole wall of text. IF YOU KNOW THAT IT'S STUPID AND THAT YOU SHOULDN'T LET IT BOTHER YOU, WHY WASTE YOUR AND MY TIME IN THE FIRST PLACE TELLING ME ABOUT IT??? you said that it pissed you off, and now you're saying that you know that you shouldn't let it bother you? talk about contradicting yourself! but you probably didn't even think about that, did you? you don't seem to think about ANY of your responses to ANYTHING i ever say and good lord, words can't describe how frustrating and irritating that is to me.

and i love how i asked you why you're complaining to me if you know everything i said because i don't understand and all you say is "It's fine." how does that MAKE ANY SENSE? YOU DIDN'T EVEN ANSWER MY DAMN QUESTION FOR ****'S SAKE UFWETOUIERIHDFK

i am, evidently, REALLY sick and tired of these one-sided conversations and thoughtless one-word replies of yours. i know it seems stupid to everyone else to get as irritated as i do over it, but this has been going on for so long and i am sooooo siiiiick of it... i honestly get nauseous whenever i see i got a message from you. please quit talking to me and wasting my time, unless you actually want to talk about something important, something that we BOTH can contribute to, and/or actually start thinking about your responses and extending them.

i mean... i'm not being unfair, am i?... i just can't talk to someone who only cares to talk about themselves and who don't really listen to what i say... i'm not intolerant of some one-sided conversations, but if ALL IT IS with a person is one-sided conversations, then i DO get sick of that, especially if the majority of their responses to me are quick little responses like "Yea" "Ik" "Idk." that doesn't make me a bad person, does it? i don't want to hurt anyone... but i don't want to talk to people like that. it's frustrating, and it makes me feel unappreciated, like you don't care to listen to what i'm saying and/or think of a good response to it, because i ALWAYS think about my responses and make them as long as i can, plus questions, because i'm almost always interested in what people tell me. i want to see you happy and i want to help you when you're down as much as i can. but you? you just don't seem to care about me at all, just yourself. you don't seem to think that conversations with me require much thought, judging by your minimal and sometimes nonsensical responses (honestly, this whole thing wouldn't have irritated me so much if you didn't say "Ik" to my advice... if you said "ok, thanks, that makes sense" then that would've been peachy). you ignore entire walls of text and questions by me. you don't even seem grateful when i try to help you anymore.

yet, you try to talk to me so often, and you seem to think fondly of me, judging by you calling me "sis"... i don't get it, but i don't like it. and honestly, how dare you call me "sis" when you don't even know the first damn thing about me (because, y'know, it's all about you 24/7 and you never ask me about myself and just give one-word replies and acronyms to anything i ever say about myself)? that just makes me uncomfortable, especially since you practically force yourself on me.

i'm sorry to be a *****, but it's how i feel. i'm also sorry that i'm getting short and direct with you, but i'm getting more and more irritated after every "conversation"... i need to talk to you about it. don't have the first clue how and when to bring it up, though. you're dealing with other things and you don't need this right now. but i think i'm really close to telling you off rudely on accident (in the spur of the moment, that is)...

thanks to your giant cuckold porn downloads, the network crashed in the middle of my competitive match, now im banned for 24 hours because you couldn't wait to jack off

**** you, i don't think there's anyone who pisses me off more than you do

Why is it that whenever I start to have Fun, my life is like, "Nope!" ? I started to get how to draw books so I could start working on anime characters in the future, but just today I found out I had lice, for the third time. Or was it fourth? -^- I need a wig.

its painful that i can't tell you guys who i really am
ive known you all for like 4 years, but im still so scared...

I'm having a really hard time. I don't want to tell you, I don't want to worry you. And I have to act happy for the little kids, I do want them to be a little comfortable around me. It doesn't help I get teased for not being able to eat much without getting sick. I'm sorry. I'm still sick from eating too much yesterday, I'm just not gonna eat anything today. Plus, I'm in an unfamiliar place while having a severe depressive episode. It's a living hell. Tomorrow until Sunday I'll be surrounded by water. I might as well just go drown myself ffs. "All girls complain about aches" Hey, hey, **** you. I have an actual knee condition that prevents me from doing extensive activity. I've gotten better to the point that I don't need my braces to walk or run anymore, but that doesn't mean I'm not in excruciating pain all the time. And another thing. I need isolation, I can't thrive in a place with more than 4 people. I freak out, I can't handle it. I only said yes to this vacation so I could get away from my mom.
I wish I could explain to people that I'm having a hard time mentally, but instead I just get called a teenager for wanting to isolate myself. I understand that teens do isolate themselves a lot and all of that, but I really need to be. I don't think these people understand that I need to hide and stuff so I can keep myself in check.
I just really need help.

my tits are big enough to fall out my bra but not big enough to smack me in the face when lying down and I consider that a blessing

Every time I pass that building, I think about you...I miss you. This has been a long week indeed.